Ok i havent really written a blog in a while, I havent gotten inspired to really write anything until now. So last night I had a very confusing experience that I hope not to have again with this person.
One thing that people should know about me is that Im a very nice person (i dont care about what certain people think, im not interested in their opinions. they know who they are) Im also a good person that will do basically anything for someone else. I dont expect much in return except not to be takemn for granted or to be riddiculed in my desicions in life. I am a real person that has real feelings, and i do have a heart that breaks.
So anyway I just want to clear the air once again, and I dont care if that guy sees this or not, I am NOT an object. I am not a piece of meat that you can use and then decide if you want a relationship with. If i say no, I fucking mean no. There are no grey areas in that statement. I am comfortable with myself enough to know what I want and what I dont want.
Dont sit there and tell me that Im not up to par with you. Dont sit there and tell me that im so inexperienced that im not on your level. And Dont you EVER call me a prude because I am faithful to a man that I love. I dont have meaningless sex because I dont believe in it.
Dont tell me that Im not a real person because your view of life is so cynical and narrow, which makes you incapable of having that thing called emapthy. Dont bitch at me and tell me that I have to prove myself to you, when in reality I have nothing to prove to you if you dont want to be my friend then Fuck you. Its your loss not mine. I dont have time in my life to have a cynical whiner constantly whine about being alone, but doesnt do anything about it. I tell you the truth about me and you regard me as a joke.
Im tired of people like you. Im tired of the person that cant enjoy life without bitching about every detail that goes wrong. Live your Fucking life and maybe you will get some life experience and love for yourself. Because who wants to be the girlfriend of a guy that has to compensate a good relationship with his ego. Grow up dude.
Im done with that now. If you change your mind and your attitude on life then maybe we can be friends, but im not wasting my energy on someone who doesnt want to help themselves.
(also posted on my myspace blog...)
