lady ace of spades's blog: "the mind and rants of a fuck up"

shit!! this guy that means the world to me, matt is thinking of suicide. i'm cryin my eyes out cuz he's shuttin me out completely! he wont tell me what's wrong and it tryin to push me away. i think i finally talked him out of followin thru wit it...i'm trying to stop sobbing...god i'm such a baby. i feel like i'm not doing anything tho... i'd die if he did... i feel so useless