This will just be a quick update about the things that have happened to me since the last time I updated...which seems to be about 3 years ago. To start, I'm 23 now and I hate it. So, I was at Gettysburg College and beginning my sophmore year when I gave one of my exs from high school a second chance and we have been together (not necessarily always happy) since then. We are going on 4 years of being together. Our 4 year anniversary is this month and we're both excited to celebrate it, like we are excited to celebrate every year we're together. :)
Gettysburg College was jerking me around. I couldn't decide what my maor was going to be and when i finally decided, the department chair was NEVER keeping the appointments, so I had to do more tracking down than I needed. When I finally got into the department, it hit me that all the degree was going to get me was a starving artist position. If I was lucky, I MAYBE could get a job in a gallery, but I wanted to create art more than remembering who and what movement a piece is from. So I would never be better than a starving artist, putting all my future money into art supplies and studio space. I decided to look into classes that would help me get a career, starting with online classes, but then when I went home for the summer, I started looking for schools around in the area (there were other factors into that decision, some things that made me NEED to get away from Gettysburg as fast as possible). On top of that, they were too busy making the college prestigious to care about the students' needs. A lot of the dorms did not have A/Cs so we either had to buy our own fans or get doctor notes to have an A/C put into the rooms. My second year there, I had my doctor write a note and I was NEVER given the A/C and August in Gettysburg is pretty warm. The theme house I was living in my second year was FULL of dust and mold and it was never cleaned properly. Nothing at the college was clean, and yet they were destroying a part of the fields I loved to go to at night to look at the stars for a new gym. Ugh!! Anyway...
We looked at GMU, Montgomery College and the Art Institute of Washington. I chose to attend the last one and when I had to decide what my major would be, I chose Game Art and Design, so now I'm studying how to make video games. I love it. I have about one year left and then I'm graduating. I'm so glad I changed schools and moved on from all that "traditional" college experience. I have to say that I got so caught up in the hype and such of having a traditional college experience that I ended up fucking up my personal life in my freshman year. I still am sorry for all the people I hurt that year. But it was my own fault.
So here I am, creating my portfolio and trying to kill time while waiting for my group members to contact me about something we need to do for a Promoting Yourself class. We have to do a 30 second elevator pitch, video tape it, put it on youtube and email it to our professor by tomorrow. No class until Thursday means I get to possibly play some xbox later. But I got a lot of work to do since our school is in the quarter system and we get 10-11 weeks of classes. Fun fun. Maybe I will post some work, maybe not.
In late March/April, I was diagnosed with gallstones and about 8 weeks ago, I had surgery to remove my gallbladder. My blood sugar has been high and I finally lowered it enough for it to be in the normal range. This is all good, since I had gained a ton of weight. Now I have lost over 30 lbs since I was first diagnosed. Sadly I hit a plateau and I have been at the same weight for a few weeks. But now I can work out with the intensity I want, everything has healed up. I plan on running in a zombie run somewhere around here, but I have to start training.
Random note: I had to change my industrial barbell to two rings.
if anyone has a tumblr, that's where I blog the most. I hardly ever come on here anymore since I'm happy with my relationship. But i come on here every once in awhile, if anyone needs me, leave a message or chat when i get on next time. I miss a few of you.
so my summer is basically ending...or at least windoing down to the end. my friends are all going to orientation so everyday until the 30th is gonna be lonely and depressing. i'm gonna miss them, especially after last year. last year whenever i came home i would have to wait the couple of weeks until they were free from school's torturous hours to hang out and have fun just relaxing. i also had to end my breaks alone while they were at school, gettin thru their last year of high school. but the main thing was that they were all in the same place: HERE. now we are all spread out. i go to gettysburg, alison is going to boston, rachel to chicago and i forget where precious is going. we are gonna be growing apart now and become wrapped up in our own lives and majors and love life dramas. the only good thing is that we will hopefully still be coming back to DC for breaks and have time for each other. this year, i'm not in a dorm. i opted for a theme house with friends i met in an early orientation last year. i am really excited. my best friend last year is my roommate this year. we had fun all last year just hangin out everyday and doing as much as we could. my roommate is a senior so she's really excited about it being her last year and how much fun she is gonna have. i'm excited for her. the house we are in is next to two frats: Crow and Teak (spelled how we pronouce them). Crow is known for puttin a scale out front and weighin every girl who came in. if she was over a specific weight, she couldnt come into the party. they are right next to us. Teak is the one i have to worry about. they are known for date raping girls at their parties, and for doing a lot harder stuff than weed. we joke that if Teak was torn down, you would find drugs in the walls and ceilings. i heard of hazing they put their pledges thru which has been dubbed "the puppy story" and it makes me shiver every time i hear it. I make a big step this year. i declare a major. i have decided on studio arts. i figure arts as a broad major will be more beneficial than a psych major for instance. The reason why is cuz you need creativity in most jobs and to get around situations. for example: web designers, and ad designers need creativity to create things that will get people to respond positively to wat they offer. you need creativity for screen writing, acting in a role (how will you say this? does your character have his own twitch or hand motion like heath ledger did for the joker? etc). an arts major will make me think outside the box on how to convery a certain emotion or image in a unique way. plus it can be applied to many different jobs instead of just one path like a psych major. if you have a mid life crisis as an art major, you can get another creative job easily because thinking outside the box is needed the most, whereas if you are just trained as a psych major and you have a mid life crisis, you're stuck. you would have to go back to college and find a different major or something else to do. i cant wait!! i'm so excited about this year. and no, i promise i wont be a straving artist. lol PS: here's the song of the moment ("ego" by the sounds) and i cant find a vid of it
the ones i wish i could have and i was going to share to let him know how i felt about him: http://youtube.com/watch?v=otMB3WVQNVg the second one is the one that says it all... he deserves so much better than me...he always will...everyone says it wasnt my fault but i will always feel like it was. story of the year "anthem of our dying day" kill hannah "lips like morphine" http://youtube.com/watch?v=JH4c6D0vLuc i deserve to be treated better and he deserves a better girl...i wasnt enough for him and i suck at life as usual...