drama is apparently part of my life, just as it is a part of everyone's lives. the drama of friends, love, and work take a toll in all of our lives. i hate when ppl say that they are lookin for drama-free people and then create drama of their own that i have to then heal. i protect my friends, i protect what is the courteous way to do things, not the quick way out. i'm not gonna lie, i have taken the quick way out of things but it's never as satifying as doing things the RIGHT way. not as satisfying as gettin the whole story from BOTH SIDES and deciding which side is deserving of your wrath and which is deserving of your sympathy. why cant ppl just stop and think about the other person and where they are coming from on the issue? why can no one ask the question "what happened to make so-and-so feel this way?" or "i have been there and i felt this and it sucks, let me ease their pain or let the other one know why i can relate?" why dont people try to relate anymore? try to put themselves in other people's shoes? try to experience what someone else is feeling for once in their lives and realize that maybe that someone is hurting more than the person you're standing up for? sometimes the victim is not your friend as you once thought it was, but the one who is being accused for no reason other than the accuser is a bitch who cant be nice, but HAS to cause drama. sometimes you are blinded by the hope that your friend has changed even when you know how she is.
pain happens. no matter how much you try to block it out, it happens and it sucks. the more pain you have, the more you CAN experience happiness IF you pick yourself up. IF you can try to help yourself. pick up a hobby, something to fall back on when times get hard again. life is never easy, no one can say it is. if they can, then they have never experienced much. i feel that the more emotion you experience, the more you HAVE experienced in life. if you can survive it. i know about pain, i have been in the same position: cutting, trying to die...i have been there and i have done it over many men who i thought had my heart. in the end, the one you love will never hurt you as bad as they can, they will never break your heart, they will never leave you no matter what. dont sell yourself short. you will find who you were meant to be with regardless of how many bitches try to hurt you. all i can say is stay strong and you will be fine before you know it. you know who you are.
