that's (the subject) the only thing keeping me alive; the fact that the weekend is soooo effin close! i cant wait. hopefully ron will let me borrow "euro trip" like he promised. just gotta get thru tomorrow and i'll be home free for two days. i'm so screwed this weekend on homework...kinda wish it would pull out a gun and shoot me.
we finished the movie in spanish class, mary admitted that she wished she was dead tho i dont know why...i wonder if something happened between her and bianca. that would suck...i've never seen mary so happy like she was on tuesday. i whispered that i knew wat she meant and she thought i didnt, i told her that she was talkin to someone who has tried twice to be dead. that shut her up...i hope she doesnt say anything.
english sucked. i sent tony and damon emails cuz i was venting anger at everyone else (cuz everyone else doesnt realize that we HAVE a 5 pager due tomorrow along with the rough draft, which she didnt collect and the prewrite) since they wouldnt shut the hell UP! like i said to tony, it's not an "i want to kill them" anger, it's an "i wanna scream at them" anger. i just wanted to scream at something...my tolerance for people had REALLY gone down. i highly doubt it's the conserta.
justice was ok, we're learning about psychological development and it's interesting cuz now i realized i'm stuck on some stage that i will prolly never ever solve...GREAT! i'm more messed up than i thought i was.
indoor LAX was fun, hard but fun. of course, the only reason to go to the DCJCC on thursdays is to buy hollah bread (i cant spell it). it's like the biggest thing ever, the store gets flooded by kids from my school who go to the DCJCC for the gym or racquetball or indoor LAX. rachel was talking on the bus wit me and she said "jew food is so good!" ben looked at us in the rearview mirror and was like "jew food?" while i like died laughing and greg shouted "jew food is AMAZING!!!" i love some kids.
i think i'm gonna stay offline as much as possible. i have too much to do, even tho i wish i could just relax, i cant. there's a paper for english (followed by another one this weekend), there's a project for science, there's the make up journals i didnt do for english, a packet that's due in spanish on the movie. that's the big stuff, the other stuff is calc (tutor is coming tonight), and justice (which i never do) and SHIT!!! i have honors tomorrow and i have to do that work too!! i just signed my evening away...shit i'm so swamped...
i still get a lil sick to my stomach when i turn on my computer. i know i'm not gonna talk to him...i know everything between us will be different now...it always is. i still wonder why everything couldnt be normal? he says it's his fault but i think we both know it's mine. *sigh* i cant do anything right...
that was an emo moment. anyway, there was a tornado warning for DC. it was pouring and warm all day which made it pretty gross. my jeans are still wet from walking in water all day, my converses are too. murphy and me went down to the buses together and there was a huge puddle at the bottom of the stairs. since i'm not tall enough (my legs arent long enough) i couldnt climb up on the wall and jump down. i had to jump from higher up and walk in mud/grassy mud to get to the bottom. then we ran into runoff from the gym roof and got soaked. i stood there wit mara for a bit until i realized my mp3 was in my backpack. then i got on the bus and had to get used to wet sweatshirt against my skin.
kinda wish it would keep raining...i wanna go get soaked and catch a cold since i'm barely concentrating in school as it is. my mind has started to beat me up again...
