when reading a book about a mans life
I found something that resonated within
the depths of my soul.
the poem below is one of the hardest i have
written...it gave me a part of the puzzle
when i was still so sad...i will miss her
I have had an epiphany in recent days
I hurt sometimes
far longer then the world would have me
I hurt into hidden darkness
I hurt into the core of what it is to be human
I hurt past treasured memories
I hurt past the little boy
I hurt into the depths of the man I have become
I know that as long as we both shall live
we will grow old together
friends, deep friends do that
we will share many tears, and joys,
we will share photos, laughter, and so much more
our lives intertwined will become solid
as we move forward on our own paths
to the things that are to come
I hurt because
you who were my heart
you who are the other half of who I am
you who fit …you just fit
you found your path,
it was just away
it was just different
from the moment
I fell in love with you
you who were my best friend
I dreamed of my life with you
how i wanted to grow old with you
as simplistic as basic math or breathing
I saw our lives, our life
ageing with grace (and wrinkles)
together
we will grow old together
we are bound
in deep friendship
we are still best friends
but I will never have the chance
to grow old
with you
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