Laying here staring at the ceiling, praying for a dreamless sleep to overtake me. Thoughts of what might have been echoing through my mind. Reverberating like a silent scream in a cavernous trench. Your face haunts me. The memory of softly spoken I love yous tugging at the shackles that hold my heart captive. Bound by a love built on lies and deception. You're nothing but an illusion. Hiding in a house of mirrors, that only shows what you want me to see. I smile to mask the pain that cuts deep into my soul. Incisions not even time can heal. Wanting to understand you, but that's a battle I can never leave victorious. It's sink or swim. These ropes that tie me to you, dragging me under. Drowning in the icy tears of fake emotion that flow through your eyes. Craving warmth, light, and truth. Darkness encases me.
