Akasha's blog: "My Writing And Other Good Stuff!"

Laying here staring at the ceiling, praying for a dreamless sleep to overtake me. Thoughts of what might have been echoing through my mind. Reverberating like a silent scream in a cavernous trench. Your face haunts me. The memory of softly spoken I love yous tugging at the shackles that hold my heart captive. Bound by a love built on lies and deception. You're nothing but an illusion. Hiding in a house of mirrors, that only shows what you want me to see. I smile to mask the pain that cuts deep into my soul. Incisions not even time can heal. Wanting to understand you, but that's a battle I can never leave victorious. It's sink or swim. These ropes that tie me to you, dragging me under. Drowning in the icy tears of fake emotion that flow through your eyes. Craving warmth, light, and truth. Darkness encases me.

Closing my eyes I realize that I am surrounded by nothingness. I am completely alone in this place of no return. The light that once set my heart ablaze, has flickered and burned out. The only thing that remains in this harsh reality is the pain of knowing that I once loved but will never love again. The last solitary ray of hope has long since died. The demons in my heart, tearing it to shreds until there is nothing left but blood-soaked remnants around their feet. Praying this is all a terrible mistake, I'm not really barren inside. I could still feel something. I feel nothing but misery searing deep within my soul. A rivulet of icy tears flows from my vacant stare.

Falling with broken wings. Only a memory there to stop me from plummiting endlessly into an eternal abyss of lost emotion. Cloaked in darkness, the haunting memories of unrequited love. Look through my mind's eye, see things as I do. Know what I know. Lonliness embraces me like a long lost friend, silently inhaling my essence. Asphyxiating itself on the obscurity that dwells deep within my soul. Closing my eyes, allowing the inner sorrow to overtake me. Momentarily becoming one with myself. Taking back all the energy you stole from me. Written By: ME