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In this clouded and grey mind of mine, are the thoughts of others long before any of me appear from the darkened areas of my brain. I care more for the friends and family I have, than this ragged and old person that I am. I've learned throughout this life of mine, that caring for others and having love for all, is always better than only thinking of one's own self. A lot of times, it is hard for me to talk about my problems to others because I do not feel the need to add to their own problems, yet I am always here to do my best and make sure others are happy and know that there are some of us out here who care. I know we are all busy in life, but just a few minutes every day to let your friends and family know you both love and care for them. For one day we may awake to find they are no longer here amongst us anymore.... PJ Page........ and Respect For All!!
" By The Night's Fire"
As they sit around outside, joking and cutting up, they can't help but wonder just what tomorrow may bring their way.
Smoking and drinking to pass the time, they enjoy one anothers company as the best of friends always seem to do.
The music is blaring in the background, as they have to raise their voices when talking to one another, yet never having to yell.
Stars splayed out across the open sky, they can only but be happy for a gathering of friends By The Night's Fire!!
PJ Page .... 1/19/2014 ... 1:45am
For the past month now, nothing seems to be able to bring me down from these clouds I seem to be walking upon. I keep a smile now and my heart honestly has some one it truly cares for more than this piss poor life I live. Never in a million years could I have expected to be so happy and joyous as you have made me. Every day we see one another or talk on the phone, I fall further and further in love with you. I can honestly say now my life feels complete because Julie, you very much so make me feel amazing!!!
PJ .... 2:19pm .... 6/11/2013
DESERVE TO BE!!
Now just why in the world, would I
Ever believe or even think a beautiful
Lady could actually care for or about
An ugly old man like myself?
What ever made me think that any
Woman could even look twice at me
Is there any one that could be out
There in this world for me?
I look back on my life and see nothing
But an ugly man who is only destined
To be alone. Living an existence that
Truly has no meaning nor purpose.
Many times people will come up and
Ask me why I stay so sad or depressed.
The only answer that comes to mind is
That an ugly failure like me deserves to be!!
PJ Page .....6 / 2 / 2013 .... 8:40pm
WHY
Why does this life always seem to have to be so cruel? Giving us moments of hope and joy, only to take them away and slam us to the ground like a pile of bricks hitting the concrete?
Why do we feel we can be cared for or loved, when there are so many who only wish we would simply vanish from this society which truly could care one way or another if we are happy?
Why does some idiot redneck like myself ever feel as if there is actually someone out there in this world who would or ever could honestly be there with me through out this lifetime?
Why do the ones we care so much for and about have to be so damn far away, to where we can not even hold them in our arms and just simply snuggle tightly against one another?
Why should I even care any more just what others think of me, even when deep inside it totally rips my heart to pieces knowing they just want me in some cave hiding from the world?
These questions come to my mind more often than not, and the only thing I can always do, is simply sit back in my lonely corner of life and only but ask the higher powers, Why, Why, Why????
PJ Page ..... 6/1/2013 .... 1:12am
I truly know now just how petty some people can be by re...
