Boomer's blog: "thinking..."

Well looks like I am the fool again. I thought we had a deal, if there was someone else we were interested in we'd tell the other person. Well I guess I missed it. I hope it works for you, and I also hope that we can still talk and be friends.

You're never alone, I'm always near, When your troubled, down or blue. All you have to do is call me, I'm always here for you. It doesn't matter where I'm at, It doesn't matter when. When you need someone to talk to, I'm here to be your friend. If you need someone to hold your hand, or a hug to say I care. If you need a shoulder to cry on, for you I will be there. So never think you are a burden, when the weight gets to be to much. You might find if look hard enough, a good friend could be the right touch. You're never alone, I'm always here, through the good times and the bad. I'm always here to be your friend, I don't like to see you sad

I don't know why I'm writing this. I guess my head figures someone might care. See there is this girl that lives far away, a place a know all to well. I moved from there cause nothing good was happening and love just seem to die. I was left with nothing, and I tryed to move on but it didn't work, everywhere I looked I just her. After I moved I met this girl, living back home. We talk all the time, and we're friends, I hope. I just wish I had the nerve to tell her that I wish it was more. I'm coming back home is December, to see a few friends, and I'm hoping to met her in person. I'm scared of what she'll think of me. I know she's not like anyone else but still I look totally different then I act. I'm trying to be myself and treat her the way I taught to treat ladies, but it just seems like I'm failing all over again. I guess if I could tell her what I'm thinking it would be this, "I miss you everyday! Even though I hardly know you, it seems like I've known you forever. I value our friendship very much. There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you, and that the truth. I can't say I love you, but I realy like you, and thats good enough, cause love is used way to much." I wounder if she feels the same? Or has even thought bout me? I guess I'll know when she reads this. I hope it doesn't make her stop being my friend. Cause that would hurt more then ever in the end. I'm going to go now, I hope this makes sense, I know it's kinda here and there and jumppy but that how my mind is working right now. -Todd-