Boomer's blog: "thinking..."

I don't know why I'm writing this. I guess my head figures someone might care. See there is this girl that lives far away, a place a know all to well. I moved from there cause nothing good was happening and love just seem to die. I was left with nothing, and I tryed to move on but it didn't work, everywhere I looked I just her. After I moved I met this girl, living back home. We talk all the time, and we're friends, I hope. I just wish I had the nerve to tell her that I wish it was more. I'm coming back home is December, to see a few friends, and I'm hoping to met her in person. I'm scared of what she'll think of me. I know she's not like anyone else but still I look totally different then I act. I'm trying to be myself and treat her the way I taught to treat ladies, but it just seems like I'm failing all over again. I guess if I could tell her what I'm thinking it would be this, "I miss you everyday! Even though I hardly know you, it seems like I've known you forever. I value our friendship very much. There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you, and that the truth. I can't say I love you, but I realy like you, and thats good enough, cause love is used way to much." I wounder if she feels the same? Or has even thought bout me? I guess I'll know when she reads this. I hope it doesn't make her stop being my friend. Cause that would hurt more then ever in the end. I'm going to go now, I hope this makes sense, I know it's kinda here and there and jumppy but that how my mind is working right now. -Todd-