There are many things on my mind,
And I find that most can't be said.
I wish I could say it all,
But I am too afraid:
I fear rejection,
Am scared of shame,
I never know if what I say
Will be considered real -
Or a lie.
I wonder if they'll believe,
The dumb things I've done;
If they'll be afraid,
Of the scary things I've thought.
Or maybe they'll not care,
Like I thought would happen.
I wonder if he'll agree,
With what I have to say;
Or if he'll laugh,
And make me feel stupid.
I keep myself quiet,
Never revealing the truth.
I wonder if they'll listen,
When I have something to say;
Will they pay attention?
Or will they just ignore?
I don't say a word,
Never showing my true self.
My mind fills up with thoughts,
Some scary, some not.
I don't say a word though,
For none can be said.
