Ok, I know I have done some things in my life that I shouldn't have done. I have stolen things from people and talked about people behind their backs. I have cheated on tests and lie to teachers. I have broken into peoples houses and ate food from their refrigerator and then taken a nap in their bed. I have looted from parked cars on the side of the street and from peoples driveways. I have stolen things from little kids and have skipped school to play rambo. I have run away from home when I was not supposed to go anywhere. I have wathed other people do things that I should not have and I have helped people do things that I should not have. I have abused people in ways that I am not proud of and I have stood by while others have been abused when I possibly could have done something to stop it. I have said things to people intentionally to hurt their feeliings and lied to them to get my own way. I have used people in ways that no one should and I have turned away from those that cared about me the most. I am the one who wants everyone to know of the wonderful things I can do and have done. I want everyone to know that I am in the room and have stopped to look at myself in the looking glass for reasons that I shouldn't, (PRIDE). I wish I had the things that others posess, (ENVY). I eat like a pig all the time taking more than I should, (GLUTONY). I want to have sex with just about every beautiful woman I see, (LUST). I am always in a bad mood and have lots of anger built up inside of me, (WRATH). I want to have all that I can get my hands on, money, cars, etc., (GREED). I should get up and go to church and prayer on a weekly basis and do the things that are proper for my physical and spiritual health, but I don't. (SLOTH). I don't believe that I am better than God . I am by no means anywhere in the same galazy, universe or wrealm as him for that matter nor do I compare myself to him. He is the all powerful and I am here to serve him but I have commited all of these sins in some way or another. These are all things that can way on your mind and cause you to feel remorse and feel the need to ask for forgiveness. You should. The thing that I feel the most remorse for doing is the one thing that has and will haunt me till my end days. I have broken the hearts of the two women in my life that would have given anything for me. I had one that I gave up for the other and that one I gave up for nothing. I am stupid. I have cheated and lied and walked out and there is nothing that I can do to unwind that clock. Once you break the heart of a woman you have sinned almost as bad as the seven spoken of previously in my opinion. There is nothing you can do to stop the pain that is going and will continue to go thru. Time can heal alot but it can only do so much. You can be a perfect angel to her and treat her like a queen until you die but I promise you even in your death she will think about the time you broke her heart and she will for a split second feel that all over again. It may not be as bad as it was originally and the details may be a little fuzzy but she will remember that you broke her heart. She may forgive you but she will never forget. As someone who has done this I am getting what I have given. I am reaping what I soe. It doesn't feel good. It is not a feeling that I would wish upon anyone. Your worst enemy would beg for you to forgive them and take it back if you cast this spell upon them. This feeling only gets into your soul if you are truly in love with someone. You can only imagine this pain if you know in your heart that you have met and hurt one of your soul mates in life. I have hurt one of mine very deeply and now I must face the consiquences of those actions. I have a very long road ahead of me and it is completely up to her as to how long I stay on this road but that is a trip that I must make if I want to get to the end destination. Wish me luck in travels.
