Have you ever wondered what would happen if you just vanished? I don't mean like someone kidnapped you or anything like that. I mean if you just took off. I have often wondered about it when the opportunity presents itself to me. For instance, when you go to the store for some milk or bread or you go to the restroom in a department store. It won't be as effective if you live by yourself and it's the weekend and no one is expecting your call or for you to come over. It will only work when someone will be looking for you within the next few minutes or maybe ten minutes. Have you ever thought, maybe I could just go and never come back? Start my life over somewhere else where no one knows who I am. You can't take your car or your money or even your purse or wallet. No I.D or credit cards or anything. I have often thought about it. Where would I go and what I could do for money? What alias would I use? What background story would I tell people? Would I change my age? My appearance? Would it even be that hard for someone to find me if I just lived out on the open road? How long could I be out there before someone said hey, you're that guy on the news or I saw your picture in the paper the other day? I had this experience the other day at work and it really made me think about it. I was working in an area of the shop that had two exit doors on each end of it away from my other co-workers and I thought, I could just leave and no one would know until they came to get me for break. I could have just walked out the door and kept going. Never to look back. I would not have to take my car, my money, just the clothes on my back. I could work for cash. I could tell people my name was Shane or Eric or hell even Juan Carlos. No one would know me. I could go to Califonia or Canada or Mexico or even Amish country. Hey, I could learn to build furniture. I could go to a reservation and smoke the peace pipe and no one could touch me. Have you ever had that type of thought? I do. Sometimes I day dream of all the places I could go and things I could do just because I have no where else to be. I think about how I would sleep under the stars unless it's raining then I would sleep under someones truck until they drove away and left me in the pouring rain again. I always end up having a good time in my mind but I know that eventually just like everyone else who hides or runs from the law in this manner I would be found or end up in jail for stealing food or just end up dead. I wonder how long you would have to be missing before you are legally declaired dead? If you are declaired dead then go home, is all of your past still gone with you (credit, name, social security #, etc.) or does it all come back? I just want to go sometimes but then I think about my family and how much it would hurt them and I very quickly change my mind and come back to reality. I guess you could say they are the only thing keeping me here. Keeping me in this place. Keeping me from being under a truck in the pouring rain or in a bar drunk or in Canada or dead. I realize I have a reason to be here and not run away. It really is sort of silly when you think about it. But have you ever thought about it?
