Some things are better left unsaid, even if they mean ur gona feel alone the rest of your life, although u may have someone in it. Things are said, people are upset, and no longer wish to be with that person because of some unresoleved issues within themselves. they no longer want to hurt inside, and no longer want to hurt others, so they keep whatevers holding them back, inside, thinking it wil be ok, thinking that if nothing is said about a problem your facing, that it wil al go away, and things will get beter.---truth is-they wont. Unfortuntly, to many people suffer from this..its called life.. and if the only one true person in your life cant stay true and help trhoughout your problems, then it was never really love. and that in turn only brings more hurt. This is what i go through everyday of my life..day after day i wake up wishin i was someone else, wishing i was beautiful, although others tell me i am... i will never belive it unitl i see it. Everyday i wake up hoping that the same night ill go to sleep and wake up to a better life, one filled with hopes and dreams, and happieness, and love. I dont feel that, no matter how hard i try. No matter who says what , or how much they love me...honestly, that doesnt matter, i still feel the same, i still face the same inner pain, and struggles that many others face also. No matter how much someone says they love me, i dont beleive it, mayb becasue of what i have ben through, changed my beliefs in life, or maybe im jus different. Am i numb to feelings, or simply just not wanting it>? ill never kno And sometimes that is the one thing that hurts me soo much-what if that someone really does love me? and im throwing it away with my doubts, and anger, along with the tears i shed. someotimes i think ill never kno, never kno anything about my life, my future, or who i am. Im still looking, and its takin forever, but hopefully i can hang on long enough to find myself. but facing this much pain and hurt, makes it soo tough, that most days i wish i wasnt even alive. Life works out kinda funny...---never the way u want it too. why is that? If it did i think the world wuld be alot happier. The guilt, pain and hurt, causes so many tears, tearing my heart in two, its liek inside theres a neverending burning, like your cursed for life, and for that, u jus wanna give up. Im sure im not the only one who feels this way, but i feel alone in the situation. How can i be holdin on to something i never had??? How can u miss what u never had? Ill never know....
