I posted a blog about a man who I thought was so amazing, and on August 7th 2009 I got a reality check. I realized that so many people hate the reality of their own lives that they live in a fantacy world. Searching for people to play out that fantacy with, and not caring who gets hurt along the way!
He is not so amazing after all, but guess what I am, I am a true and honest person, and was from day one, and now an even wiser person! I will not be fooled again! I am here to have fun and make friends, so if you are looking to hook up, don't bother, and don't even dare ask me for NSFW's! Not happening, I have way too much respect for myself!
If you have read my other blog you already know that I am a single mom of two really great kids. Which means I work full time, and I am a parent fulltime. So I really don't get the chance for me time. So fubar is my me time, and when I first joined, I was simply on here for fun, and laughs. Thats seems to have all changed lately. Lord knows I never expected it to change. I have always been the person who doesn't believe that you can find someone that you connect with on the internet. Boy was I ever wrong. I have met the most amazing man ever, or atleast to me he is amazing! Not only does he make me laugh so much my guts hurt, and make me have to change my depends with the little pink flowers on them, but he has also made me feel like a WOMAN. Never disrespects me in anyway, or begs me to get naked and get naughty. I am so very glad we met here on fubar, because if it were in person, we probably would have had intimate relations before we had the chance to get to know eachother, and never would have made it to that point. What I know now is that he is definately someone I want to keep in my life, even if its a friendship, which I highly doubt. He is so wonderful in so many ways, and I am so damn thankful that I have met him....Kiss Kiss my richard cranium
There was a little bird
no bigger than a tird
sittin on a telephone pole
He ruffled up his neck
He shit about a peck
and puckered up his lil asshole
If you are one of my friends on fubar, then you are probably friends with my crazy ass sister. We have been best friends for almost 32yrs now, she knows me like no other person and I know her like no other person. We are so connected that we have found ourselves buying the same cards for people without even knowing it until the person opens the card.
I really want her to know that she is my soul, my best friend, and I admire her so much. She is completely beautiful, and she has a personality that rocks..
We start life not knowing anything, and the first people we love in our lifes are out parents. Days make you older, and years make you wiser. You find love you loose love, but the only love that never goes away, is the love of our children, and our parents.
My path of life has been a bit of a rollarcoaster ride, as a child I could not have asked for a better life, I had wonderful parents, who provided a wonderful life for my siblings and I. The first devistation came when my parents devorced when I was 11. That split moved my father, my siblings and I back to New york, and I watched my father work so very very hard to provide an equal life as we had when we were still a family of 5. I have great respect for what he did for us!
This move takes me into my life as a teenager going to high school in New york, I had the most wonderful years of my life there, and met people there who touched my life so greatly. I met my first love and spent 2 yrs being a love struck teenage girl, not having a care in the world other than when I get to spend time with my love. And thats where the next devistation takes me, I was forced away from him because of my mother taking me back to Florida at the age of 15. I took me awhile to get over that situation, but I did and met my childrens father. Then I was love struck again. I spent 10 years of my life with him, and accomplised making 2 absolutely beautiful children. I sacrificed alot of myself to maintain that family unit because I did not want my children to feel the same devistation I felt when my parents split, but a woman can only take so much physical and mental abuse. So at the age of 26, my children and I left, and lived with my father. Being so lonely I felt like I needed to have a man in my life, and was so niev. I started a relationship with another man, that relationship lasted 4yrs, and in that 4 yrs I went through so many things that a human should never have to experiance.Everything I went through in those 4 yrs has made me who I am today, a srong and independant woman, who thrives on making my children as happy as they can possibly be.
The absolute most devistating experiance in my life was watching my father die of Lung Cancer. He was my hero, my best friend, my rock, and my heart and soul. He was diagnosed with cancer in september of 2004, and passed away January 13th of 2005. The man was 278 lbs and 6ft 2 who I never imagined could possibly be taken away. I watched him wither away to nothing, and this made me so angry inside, why would god do this to us. It happened and there was nothing anyone could do to change it, and my children and I were forced to face life without him there. My heart still hurts when I think that he is not here, but when I think about how happy he would be for me now, as a single mother and as strong as I am, my hurt turns into joy.
So here I am in 2009, with the best kids a woman could ask for, my son plays little league, and has made the allstar team. My daughter is graduating from the 5th grade and about to start life in middle school. These two little people that I created have given me the most joy I have ever felt. I make sure everyone around me knows how wonderful they are, and i show them off as much as I can. My life is nothing without them, and nothiing else in the world matters, especially a man right now. If I have to spend the rest of my time single while I am raising them, then thats what I will do, as long as my children are happy!
This blog is something new for me, not usually one to put my life out there for everyone to see, but it felt good to say it all, and hopefully some of what is said here will touch someone's life.
Thanks for taking the time to read this, have a wonderful day!