literally. the past two days have sucked sooo much. since tuesday i have been getting sick and i didnt go to the health center until today. turns out i have an infection in my chest. it makes sense...at least to me it does. the woman at the desk was really rude to me this morning which i didnt need today especially after wat happened wit my professor but that is a story for later. so the receptionist this morning was just RUDE. it went like this:
me: hi, i'm a walk-in..
her: oh, well we do everything by appointment (NOTE: their site says they take walk-ins)
me: oh ok
her: wat's your name? since when have you been sick?
me: angelica mooney and since tuesday
her: well, ANEGELICA, we do everything by appointment (i wanted to say, a-fuckin-pperantly!)
me: uh...ok
her: i dont have anything right now until late morning
and that's how my appointment wasnt until 11:25. but i now have super antibiotics so we will see.
the professor thing and then the mike thing. ok. my LAS professor was a douchebag to me this morning. he completely flipped out on me because he doesnt know fuckin english grammar and that when you say "or" it means the person has a fuckin choice. my memory sucks and i have explained that to him. he says he has mentioned that we needed 2 journal articles AND a book or two. while i'm sure he did, i didnt remember so i checked the fuckin syllabus and it said (verbatium) "at least two journal articles or read a portion of a book or two". but he STILL fliiped out on me and got pissed and was like "why am i always telling you guys to check the syllabus?" it wasnt something i needed then and i tried really hard to not cry. i hate it when people yell at me, especially teachers cuz then i feel stupid and i did what the syllabus fucking ASKED ME TO DO! so now, like 5 hours later, the tears are coming back, the ones i suppressed earlier. so now i just have to read two journal articles and cite them which wouldnt be that hard. but i dont deserve to get yelled at if the syllabus says one thing and he means another. it also was a big hassle for me to even PRINT my paper for him! tho after he yelled at me, he said that yea the syllabus was misleading, and gave me an extension and let me be excused from class. i had forgotten about it until i just checked my email and he emailed me saying he was sorry for the reaction to my paper and gave me the reading for tonight.
yesterday was bad too. i was dragged into another relationship issue. my friend kat dated this guy, mike, a senior here, for 4 months. he dumped her without giving her a concrete reason. he says their age difference bothers him, there was a second reason and then that they hung out too much. she was broken up over it. one day (i mentioned this in a previous blog), mike was at breakfast the same time i was last sunday. we talked, we watched a movie, we walked back to my dorm and he went to servo to do work. we didnt talk for a week and then i saw him at servo saturday morning. my friend nav was with me so we all sat down, ate and talked and then nav left. me and mike were sitting there talkin and to make conversation, i asked if he had worked out that morning. he looked confused and he asked me if i had wanted him to work out and i giggled and said no, it was just a question. he flexed and kissed his muscle saying he worked out just for me which i took as a joke. we went to my dorm and i grabbed some books and we headed over to the library. he grabbed a couch and i grabbed a chair and we read. at one point he put his book down and hit the foot stool to get my attention so we could talk. later on, he sat up and was talkin to me and staring at me (there is a BIG difference between lookin at and staring at). everytime i catch him staring, i say "you're staring at me, why?" and he's like "wat? i'm not allowed to look at my friend?" and to joke around i'll say 'no of course not" and he'll cover his face and be like "i'll never look again!" then he got up and said "a hug for my friend ace" and hugged me while i was still sitting down. AWKWARD.
well yesterday, kat came to me crying. i was finishin up a conversation wit my mom about being sick. we were in the common room and i hung up the phone after me and mom finished talking. kat opens up wit "can i talk to you?" and i was like "yea, of course". she goes "what's your relationship with mike?" and i said "we're just friends". and after awhile i find out kat had been mad at me last week because neither me or mike had mentioned we had hung out twice. i didnt want to tell her cuz i felt like it was throwin it in her face and i didnt wanna make her cry when i knew she was still really hurting. i was surprised mike didnt tell her. but we talked until i was hoarse and promised to call him. after awhile i went and called him and went to get water, talked wit kat and missed his call. i called him back and told him that we needed to talk about kat cuz she had come to me crying. he was mostly worried that me and him couldnt be friends. that was his biggest concern. and it confused me and kat. everyone's been sayin that he likes me cuz i'm so different from kat. as my ex, kenny put it when i told him about it, kat lets mike walk all over her and he got bored. mike sounds like he needs a strong willed woman and to him, that's me. kat even asked mike when she called him later on if he liked me and he said no. she told him he didnt have to call me back (he said he would when i called him earlier) and he told her he had had no intention to call me back and told me that to shut me up and get off the phone. she told me that and i called him and yelled at him.
see, when kat fought with him, he would say whatever and that would be it, or he would hang up on her. for some reason, he fought wit me on the phone and i hung up on HIM. kat was impressed i think. he called me back and i ignored his call and then he texted me to continue arguing. THAT worried kat. it also worried me too. why wouldnt he fight with his girlfriend but he was willing to fight with me? it didnt seem fair. this was our texting back and forth:
him: did you hang up on me?
me: yea cuz you pissed me off and i cant talk when i'm that pissed
him: that's real nice Ace
me: uh huh like tellin me anything to get me off the phone and havin no intention to uphold your word is better
mike: it was a misunderstanding and the way you're acting is totally disproportionate.
me: well i think it was fuckin RUDE that you didnt have any intentions of callin me back, and that is a really dick move i cant stand
mike: i'm not going to argue with you. i surround myself with better company than you're deomnstrating. Goodbye.
me: fuck you, i wanted to be friends but you're proving you cant even do that and be honest with me so w/e if you cant treat me like a friend then there is no point
mike: i'm heartbroken
me: nice sarcasm
mike: i try kid
me: and you succeed, see you whenever i see you
so i am now not talkin to him but if he wants to talk, then it's up to him to make the first move cuz i'm not going to. if he likes me, that's wierd. i still think of him as kat's boy and she thinks the same thing. so i guess we'll see. it's such an awkward situation!!!
he has done a lot for me tho. the first time we hung out, i was wearing pj pants and flip flops and it was partially snowing and really windy. we were walkin back to my dorm and i was like "it's sooooo fuckin cold!!!" and he had changed from shorts and flip flops to jeans and uggs. he looks down at his shoes and goes "do you want to switch?" i laughed and said no i would be fine but thank you for the offer. i dunno, just everything he's done for me (plus the kiss) all point to him likin me and i have already told him that i wasnt lookin for a relationship and he knows that. oh, and apperantly, he makes fun of overweight people like me, but he hasnt made a single comment about me being overweight nor about anyone else. and he still wants to hang out wit me. the hug scared kat the most because apperantly he doesnt interact much with his girl friends. he wont touch them but he touches me by giving me a hug...i like the idea that a senior here likes me but at the same time, i dont wanna hurt kat and he's not my type. so i guess we will see what happens (which i hope it nothing besides me and him still being friends!)
i be diagnosed.
