To everyone who reads this,
I'm sorry for the pain.
Believe me when I tell you,
My actions weren't in vain.
I don't know how to let you know,
Of all the pain I was in.
Nothing can describe the reason,
I committed this sin.
You said you knew the best for me,
And how to make me smile.
You didn't even think to check,
Every once in a while.
Whether I was right and good,
Or just down and out.
Whether I wore a smile,
Or a frown or pout.
Even my sharpest blades have been,
Better friends than you.
There for me through thick and thin,
What was I to do?
I've struggled through the past few years,
Keeping out of strife.
Each day edging closer,
To taking my own life.
My will to live had been dissolved,
But my memories remained.
Little did I realise how,
The crimson river stained.
So when you find this I'll be gone,
My exit's growing near.
Please forgive my selfishness,
And please don't shed a tear.
To all of those that loved me,
And those that pretended to.
Understand above all else,
That I loved you too.
