Sapphire's blog: "The Affair"

 

In Bob's arms, Jesse felt at home, never had she felt so much love and she was never more desired. Bob had never felt so alive in his entire life, Jesse brought to him what he thought he could never feel. He knew that he had to keep her in his grasp because she was his light. He watched her as she gracefully swam in the pool, by the moonlight she looked like a beautiful mermaid, she was everything he ever have never asked for in a woman, young ,vibrant,compassionate, sexy so full of energy, the turmoil he debated over and over in his head was that even though she was everything he could ever hope for was that it was just too late in life he was over 50 stuck in his ways and didn't know if he could give her what she needed or deserved, but for now he would have to keep her hanging on until he figured it out. He jumped in and snuck up behind her and swooped her in for a long awaited kiss. "Did I scare you? he teased. "oh, ya, like anybody would sneak in your private gate, while my 2 favorite protectors were around." she laughed looking at him and his dog. "nice to know that you can hold me up in the same category as the dog." 'Well if the shoe fits" now was her time to tease. What are you Saying? Hmm? " I am just saying that every man is entitled to be a bad doggie every now and then, but don't you worry yourself none, the treat is well worth it, now be a good puppy and cum over her and lick me" she said seductively. Your very bad but tasty he commented and he licked the back of her neck until it sent shivers up and down her spine.they made love in the pool she went underwater and gave him one of the best head jobs he had ever had. She didn't come up for air until he came deep inside her throat. "where the hell did you learn how to do that, he asked, his eyes bulging out the back of his head Wouldn't you love to know? She teased. She was amazed herself, this kind of things always came naturally to her, but it was as much of a pleasure exploring new things to him, for him, he brought all these erotic feelings in her and she felt free in her sexuality, no more holding back.

He thought to himself how cleaver this girl was, she had totally turned the tables around on him ,this turned him on he felt that, she was now his equal, at least in the mental games that men and women play with each other. He knew that even though he didn't care for the situation at hand, he couldn't say anything because she was right, it was exactly what he was doing to her. He didn't know what her motives were, but he wanted to see. He was falling for the devilish angel, for whatever reasons, and he did need her in his life. Her uniqueness shone through her spirit and something inside her cautioned her heart. This is exactly what he does. His only reply was "lets go home and get naked" Jesse took that to mean that he understood and that he was willing to change the rules. This delighted her, for now she could have her cake and eat it to , now to bring Cody and Sarah home would be the icing, she felt confident she knew she could conquer the world, Bob had that effect on her.Ya, lets just go do that, I am riding with you, I was dropped off." Arm in arm they headed home for a session of their ever passionate lovemaking.

"Bob", Jesse interrupted."I have something to tell you. I have done something that is going to change the way we do things, but if you still want to we could work around it." His eyes got bigger as he wondered what she was trying to say. "Jesse, what are you getting at?" "Wait, before I tell you, I must explain something to you. I Know sometimes I do the all wrong things for what I think is the right reasons, but I have to explain why I did these things. I did it in hopes of it will be helping to get my kids back, you must understand it was for no other purpose." "Jesse, did you go back to your husband?" He asked disappointed. "Hell no! ,1 would never do that again." She said in a hardened tone. "Than what is it, the suspense is killing me, and I am too old as it is." He joked breaking the ice, and trying to conceal the fact that he was a tad bit nervous. "promise you won't be mad?" Jesse said as innocently like she was a child with her hands caught in the cookie jar. " I can't loose you now.' she said under her breath, he could hardly make out the words. " I promise, I could never be mad at you for making a mistake, especially when it comes to your children." He answered her instinctively, wanting to grab her and hold her forever. Tears building up in her eyes, she blurted everything out. How she had this crazy plan that involved her friend Ron, the agreement they had, and how at first she did it to run away from her feelings from Bob, but then realized that since her and Ron were platonic friends ,she craved and desired him even more. That even though she screwed up and moved Ron in, they have to keep it up for the coalitions benefit. That she and Bob will have to work around that situation , like they do with his other lover.

Let's get out of here, and go have a pizza next door then, ya up for.it, he teased. Come to think about it I am hungry, and could probably eat a whole one by myself, she joked back. So they went next door and 'ordered 2 personal pizza's there he did some of the talking. He started the conversation with, "I know , I haven't let you in, I wanted so much to tell you my story, so many times, but I was sure you had too much to deal with already , and I didn't want to burden with you. He went on to tell her That he was the black sheep of his family, which was hard for her to believe, considering he was the most intelligent, caring, and passionate man she has ever met. He told her that his brother- in- law was a great doctor and he made him feel worthless whenever he visited his home town of Virginia city He parents were both alcoholics and he was raised in a bar. He was married when he was 21, and quickly divorced shortly after. He moved to Florida with a girl, bought a house together, than one evening after they got in a big fight about something that used to belong to his mother , looking tacky, and what it meant to him , her not caring, threw her out, now he is some famous author living in Africa somewhere. That he thought education was the most important thing a person could have. Jesse sat mesmerized with his confessions. He had a rough life too , but in a totally different way, but caused pretty much the same insecurities that even she had. She watched him explain some of his story and even thought she had seen a tear from his eyes as he spoke. She knew then she was definitely in love with him , no question about it he owned her heart body and soul.

Once in the comfort surroundings of the bar,Jesse ordered a shot of Goldshlugger and slammed down a white Russian, before she called Bob, and told him where she was. While awaiting his arrival, she ordered another round of both the shot and the drink. She couldn't help to be nervous, she knew she had to tell him the truth. Unsure of how to tell him, or how he would even take it, she knew that it had to all come out. She was hoping it wouldn't make him change his mind, she felt the safest when he was around, she had developed 2 different personalities. He was the only person she could let her sexuality soar, he only knew her as that personality, she never introduced the other personality, she was sure that he saw glimpses of it, but also sure, he didn't notice there were 2 of her, and that by day, her life was led totally different than it was led at night. It was too confusing for her to explain that to him, hell she didn't quite understand it herself. He walked in the bar looking as handsome as ever, he ordered a draft. "How have you been , Jessica? " He asked. Jesse would later understand that when he called her by her whole name, he was showing his care for her. To him when he said the word Jessica, it was a sign of love he would never own up to. "We need to talk" She blurted out "But this is not the time or the place." " Are you trying to tell me , you don't want to see each other anymore, he prodded. No, not that, she stammered nervously. Are you pregnant , he accused Hell no was her only response. Than what is it Jesse, he almost sounded like a frightened child sitting there. I promise I will tell you everything, but you have to keep an opened mind and this might just work, Have you ate dinner yet? He asked No, I haven't had a chance to slow done to think about eating.

Jesse drove to her mother's house and checked on Sarah and Cody, playing a Nintendo game with them, making sure that they knew that they weren't just abandon. She never wanted them to feel alone and scared, she always took time to check on them daily, even if it was for an hour or less, and she let them know she could call her anytime they needed her. She would be there as soon as she could. She was never away from a number where she couldn't be reached. Her mother knew the number's to all her friends, all her hangouts, luckily she had friends who were caring enough for her to do this.She called at least 3 times a day no matter where she was or whom she was with. In a way, from the outside , her mother was right, it did look like Jesse was using her as a free babysitter, so that made it tough to defend herself in any argument to such a fact. She knew the truth, she knew the empty pit in her stomach every time they were not around, she knew the pain in her heart, yes she knew too well the loneliness in her life she felt as a result to this. She wondered often to Javier, and wondered if he felt as empty as she did, I mean, after all this is all his fault, she thought. She decided to pick Ron up at work get him to take her car and drop her off at the bar she usually met Bob at. She let him know she wouldn't be home tonight and she would pick the car up in the morning from his job. Her only responsibility to him right now was to make sure he had a ride back and forth to work and to help with bills, she had no problems with lending her car, he never asked questions, he was always afraid to hear the answers, so he just quietly agreed, he knew if he tried to control her it would just make it worse. Inside, she knew it hurt him, but she didn't care, why should she, did he in the past, no this relationship had to stay platonic, for both of their good, Secretly, he hid what he was really feeling, which he would find out later that it was much more than he could handle