Jesse drove to her mother's house and checked on Sarah and Cody, playing a Nintendo game with them, making sure that they knew that they weren't just abandon. She never wanted them to feel alone and scared, she always took time to check on them daily, even if it was for an hour or less, and she let them know she could call her anytime they needed her. She would be there as soon as she could. She was never away from a number where she couldn't be reached. Her mother knew the number's to all her friends, all her hangouts, luckily she had friends who were caring enough for her to do this.She called at least 3 times a day no matter where she was or whom she was with. In a way, from the outside , her mother was right, it did look like Jesse was using her as a free babysitter, so that made it tough to defend herself in any argument to such a fact. She knew the truth, she knew the empty pit in her stomach every time they were not around, she knew the pain in her heart, yes she knew too well the loneliness in her life she felt as a result to this. She wondered often to Javier, and wondered if he felt as empty as she did, I mean, after all this is all his fault, she thought. She decided to pick Ron up at work get him to take her car and drop her off at the bar she usually met Bob at. She let him know she wouldn't be home tonight and she would pick the car up in the morning from his job. Her only responsibility to him right now was to make sure he had a ride back and forth to work and to help with bills, she had no problems with lending her car, he never asked questions, he was always afraid to hear the answers, so he just quietly agreed, he knew if he tried to control her it would just make it worse. Inside, she knew it hurt him, but she didn't care, why should she, did he in the past, no this relationship had to stay platonic, for both of their good, Secretly, he hid what he was really feeling, which he would find out later that
it was much more than he could handle
