So from what I'm reading, they talk about it as people with high selfestem who's self-esteme is easily threatened. Then they act out at those who theaten it. It takes a lot to threaten my self esteme, I think. So I don't think I am much danger of it. Although, I think ai am somewhat of a dissorder hypocondriac. Maybe it's that I have such a grandiose self image, and dillusions of self importance, and such, that I think if someone is writing, they are probably writing about me. LOL.
I haven't had muh time to do much, but study and read and stuff.The sad thing is, it was probably all a waste of time. I did really bad oon my test today. I spent most of the week studying for it. It's somewhat depressing. The studying probably didn't do much because my mind was preocupied by other events. So the test just brought the shitty week to a close. The good thing is, I feel that it is over for now. The shittyness has basicly ended with the week. And now I'm on the upsswing of things. ( And no, I didn't blow up the testing center for making me question my self esteme. I was able to blame my score on extranious factores such has having to cope with the fact sometimes bad things happen. Specificly people we care about are forced away frum us and have to be around pieces of shit for a few months. Something that made the stydying process mostly useless. I know it wasn't my lack of effort, and I doubt it was due to some form of pure ipermanent nhibility to do well. ) More good news is, I get paid full time all summer. I wasn't too sure about that atfirst, but I just got a letter thing assuring me of it.
I shaved my head tonight too. Although, I'm thinking if I didn't cut my hair the other night, I may have done better on the test. Maybe I lost some braincells or something when I cut it? I figure this way fresh new braincells will grow with the knowledge all week long. and then I'll do better on the next test.
