Tomcat's blog: "Stardust - tomcats blog"

After posting the last blog I had some good news - before we were stranded with a car that needed a brake job and could not be ued.

Then someone showed up and offered to buy small fishnig boat  and as part of th deal he said he will fix our brakes on th car. 

At last we got transportation again and well over 100 bucks to buy some food - and we were truely at rock bottom. 

Yea - my metaphysical angels have returned.

Until tomorrow - but tomorrow is just some other time.

P'S - read my other current blogs - overlook the otherly-dimensional terminology in some of them.

Wishing upon a star or reaching for a last staw - it makes no difference who you are , magic might work if you are left with nothing at all, or perhaps if you have one more purpose to install.

Positive thinking is bound to wear thin when reality overcomes the will to pretend, When you watch th signs that proclaim a dead end.

How can we debate th powers  and the glory of the universe or the will of destiny that must be done?   The universe is like a utility company of energy - we hope th due date to extend - before they shut off the switch and pull the plug  - but will the angels hear those who are poor with little left to give, and by some grace allow them to live? 

I await th fate,  the wake, yet with humble yearnings the cup I will not of free will take. Yea, belief and faith is al they can take,  and that sowrd I shall not forsake. 

Ha! 

In an illuminated journey through the dimentional colors of the imagination we  will reach  that point where we shall emplode into the NOW where time becomes obsolete - to co-create our paradiice made up of the best that we have discovered in  mother  nature, technology, and human nature, these treasures and visons manifesting in the soil of the heaet's joy, and the blessings of the oversoul. 

For high is really far-out - and it is within you., yet apart.

not really an angle just a nice lady named Diana - my wife arranged to get a loan so we casn get th breaks fixed on our old car  and some food  - she walked 4 blocks to the bus stop in 100 degree heat and waited.  Just then a stranger named Diana stopped and asked her if she needed a ride - this lady has a personal mission about helping old people. 

She took her to the loan place - to the store and back to our house.  She gave my wife her phone number in case she needs another ride sometime.  She also took photo of the fishing boat we are trying to sell and will post it at the place where they lounch boats at Lake Elsinore.

One person  made a difference today,  And the timing had to be just right for this event to have happned at all.

Being down and out  has it's perks - you get to meet the real angles among us.  As well as the hypocrits of course.

Those who live by the book loose the ability to think for their self .  From judges to doctors - from government workers to factory workers,  they all must stick to the rule books or risk the chance to loosing their positions.

If we do not have a book we must  depend on someone who has a book for each kind of problem that comes up.  Each book is written by top ranking CEOs, drug companies - religious and governmental people, etc.

Making  choices based on your own common sense soon becomes unlawful. personal freedoms vanish.  signs and stick on post "em notes soon replace your mother and father.

If your mind tries to enlighten you with an allternative that does not conform to the books you might become confused - or even  feel guiilty.

we are trained to not trust our self or how to operate our own brain. Only to trust the s0-called experts - the leaders and the authorites, the police state.

Why the hell am I writing thsi?  I do not have a clue.

not much is for sure -except that the sun might shine again tommow.  It is now around 100 degress in the shade. 

All the money this month goes to pay the  rent and we are still short of making full payment - thats ok but hole just  gets deeper.  The breaks on our car went out so my son and wife cannot get  work, as we have no money to get it fixed.  The reality of that means that next month we might become homelesss people.

And stupid us spent money so we can be on fubar and have a  cell phone and TV.  At least last month we did .  life is a bitch  right now but at least  my cancer might be an  excape door.

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There were no freeways to get out our place - you had to drive down this dirt road for a pace.

A little wood house and a big rd barn - old Tick our dog watchd the farm.

As `evening  cooled us from a days work friends might come around. We would sit on the porch with some coffee and talk about the happenings down town.

After the visitors left in thir pick-up we would wash the cups and check on th chickens and animals and turn in - morning omes around pretter early out on a farm  - I reacon.

My computer is to slow for  me to DJ live at a lounge so I made arrangements the a lounge called the Rebel  Renegade to be a a suto DJ - songs from my private list  will play by random selection in the lounge at certian times and dates - the music will be  mostly country and classic rock.   Plus a few oldies from back in the days of Buddy Holly when rock and roll was born and perhaps some 80s sounds.  

So if you want to hear some rockin rebels - hillbillys - hippies - rednecks and country singers then you will want to tune  in - also chat with me and the wild ones who hang out there.

It  will be fu fun turned up to the max.

In the deep purple sky  the moon shall glow.  On all that is below - until the morn when the sun will make it's show.

The garden is open where wildflowers grow  -  peacefull and safe from the trafic and madness where most people go - gentlly the wind's messages through the green will blow - for those who take the time to know.

The earth soft and brown - waiting for seed's some planter might sow - for  the purpose of life  is to evolve and grow - at least until the winter's snow -

After surgery to remove a cancer tumor the hospice group came to my house to provide post op care.  Their doctor warned me that agressive treatments to kill the final 10 percent of the cancer remaining (assumed remaining) would put me back into the hospital and although I might gain some extra time that time would not be much fun (I will not go into details).   So at this moment I believe I will not subject myself to an attempt to get cured by x ray bombardments.  Hospise will make sure the rest of my time here will be as comfortable and as painless as possible.   However.... cancer is a funny thing and sometimes it can reverse itself,  this i will not know for a few months. 

The doctor said he cannot speak about miracles and must stick to the science of course.  

Although I must take it easy to recover from surgery it is not in my nature to sit around dieing so I will focus on living instead.  I am not feeling down and out nor depressed,  and ready for whatever this journey has to offer.