i want my life to be stable
stable before i start my life...before i choose to start my family..before i decide "hey i want to have kids" i don't want to be one of those single moms struggling to survive day to day..i see that ive seen it alot lately..and its sad...not in the sense that i feel sorry for the person because yes they got themselves in that situtation but for the fact that who they got pregnant with either it didnt work out or the man left...not with that being said this isnt to put anyone down...by all means i have friends that have that life they wanted... but im jsut saying... i see the other end with lots of people and cant help but think that thats not what i want for myself
i use to feel really stongly about wanting to do the truck driver thing...i in a sense still do but i hate when people talk it down and say it sounds hard...if by hard you imply the minimum time home and lack of getting to spend time with loved ones...right now i look at my life..and at this moment in time..im not really offering much to any table...im unemployed,i dont have the gas money to go out and do things and spend money...what i do right now is pretty much sit at home clean occasionally,sit on the computer,watch tv and movie and well yea pretty much all it is that im doing..with the occasional adventure of helping out shy and sometimes josh to get to and from work....Now if my friend can help me get back in to universal like he says he can do which would be awsome..i might possibly not feel so useless to everybody...
I've already said it before may it be here or on myspace but still my plans and dreams are big...im kinda scared that my choices wont turn out what i want them to be but im willing to take those risks and see how things go ..im still rather young and im still allowed to make mistakes..i dont really think im ready to settle down or give up...what ever happens will happen
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IN ANOTHER UNRELATED TOPIC
i desided to go ahead and go for a ride with my mom on the back of her motorcycle it was awsome and i cant wait to do it again lol... theres my random fact for the day lol
p.s if anybody still uses myspace but doesnt have me there and wants to be my friend there ask me fro my url or leave yours lol..
