I need to do this.. if only to prove to myself that im not worthless...
to have something to show for myself...i need to keep pushing for it....
I want to be able to show that if i put my mind to it im worth while...
I know that i can be good company..
I just dont give myself the chance to anymore
Something just has to give...has to change...the oppertuneities******(htf do u spell it) that pass by because i feel like i couldnt measure up and have nothing to bring to the table besides myself and empty pockets.. i think the empty pockets are what get me the most... because if i had money of my own i wouldnt mind doing things with others because i wouldnt feel like they felt i was relying on them for something that involved money
dont get me wrong i think that i have much to offer in myself and if nobody likes what i got to give then thats there loss..i jsut feel like i can offer more or it would give me an advantage to have a career and the things i can show for it lol.... ok thats it for now im dont ranting..its 10 am...
