KiNkySLuTpUpPy's blog: "sometimes...."

Lost in a world, that scares me to death, Lost in a crowd I’m losing my breath, Lost as a kid, lost as an adult I feel everything is falling apart and its my fault Lost as a person, cant find my way Lost in life every day, Lost in worry Who am I? I’ve lived a Lie Lost to Kindness, Lost to Love Lost in the sky, Like a lonely dove Lost in thought which I shouldn’t do It Winds me up, I can’t get through Lost to comfort all kind words Lost to advice that isn’t heard Lost to those who really care? All these people always there Lost in Me, I need a break Lost in wonder which road should I take? Lost in a place I don’t know well Where are you now? There’s no one to tell Lost here all alone To break these walls Lost in mind Lost in soul Lost memories, there just a hole Lost family, lost my place Still yet I’m full of hate Lost in boredom think I’ll leave There’s a lot in life I need to achieve

just FUCKKKKKKKKK I try so hard to please you, But everything I do Just makes a bigger mess of things, And sometimes I hurt you. I want to do my best with you. Instead I do my worst. The things I shouldn't bother with I manage to put first. I guess that I just care too much, Whenever you are near. Although you're always gentle So there's nothing there to fear, But since you mean so much to me I guess I'll always try, But botch up everything instead Until the day I die.

I am just doing muble jumble mostly cuz im at wits end....my kids are making me nuts my no job ass is making me more nuts....I am a brat I am a bitch I am the nicest person you may ever meet...I do good for good and shit on those who deserve it I see through everything. Even i can fake the front...I look at the scroll bar and see mostly smiling happy people and a red ? mark why is it red? Red means anger why cant it be blue or green...I been in love out of love dragged through the mudd stepped on slapped punched smiled like no other and cried like a baby... Am i nuts no i think that is normal and makes sense...my senses another thing i canrt barely see anymore i sure cant feel reality. my hearing was shot at age 5 and my taste well i tast numb.. i love you all but alas i am defeated

Lifeless love That no longer feels right A dark heart That lost its light In the dark It is his face I see Clinging on You won’t set me free It’s not fair So for you I remain Forgetting him To shield you from pain A slow end Inside cracking, drying Yet wet tears Mind and heart vying It’s too late My fate has now been set And my needs Denied, laid to rest

Once I wasn’t always so plain. I was strewn feathers on a cross of dune, an expanse of ocean at my feet, garlands of gulls. Sirens and gulls. They couldn’t tame you. You know as well as they: to be a dove is to bear the falcon at your breast, your nights, your seas. My fear is simple, heart-faced above a flare of etchings, a lineage in letters, my sudden stare. It’s you. It’s you! sang the heart upon its mantel pelvis. Blush of my breath, catch of my see—beautiful bird—It’s you.

"kitty". sixteen,5'1",white,prostitute. ducking always the touch of must and shall, whose slippery body is Death's littlest pal, skilled in quick softness. Unspontaneous. cute. the signal perfume of whose unrepute focusses in the sweet slow animal bottomless eyes importantly banal, Kitty. a whore. Sixteen you corking brute amused from time to time by clever drolls fearsomely who do keep their sunday flower. The babybreasted broad "kitty" twice eight —beer nothing,the lady'll have a whiskey-sour— whose least amazing smile is the most great common divisor of unequal souls.

Doing, a filthy pleasure is, and short; And done, we straight repent us of the sport: Let us not then rush blindly on unto it, Like lustful beasts, that only know to do it: For lust will languish, and that heat decay. But thus, thus, keeping endless holiday, Let us together closely lie and kiss, There is no labour, nor no shame in this; This hath pleased, doth please, and long will please; never Can this decay, but is beginning ever.

FOR THE RECORD, I DID NOT WRITE THIS I took it off of the lovely Twisted Goddess' blog Mamma Bear Lessons for Life: 1. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully. 2. Memorize your favorite poem. 3. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have, or loaf all you want. 4. When you say, "I love you," mean it. 5. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye. 6. Be engaged at least six months before you get married. 7. Believe in love at first sight. 8. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much. 9. Love deeply and passionately. You may get hurt, but it's the only way to live life completely. 10. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name-calling. 11. Don't judge people by their relatives, or by the life they were born into 12. Teach yourself to speak slowly but think quickly. 13. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?" 14. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk. 15. Call your mother. 16. Say, "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze. 17. When you lose, don't lose the lesson. 18. Follow the three Rs: Respect for self, Respect for others, Responsibility for all your actions. 19. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship. 20. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it 21. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice. 22. Marry a person you love to talk to. As you get older, his/her conversational skills will be even more important. 23. Spend some time alone. 24. Open your arms to change but don't let go of your values. 25. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer. 26. Read more books. Television is no substitute. 27. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time. 28. Trust in God but lock your car. 29. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life. Do all you can to create a tranquil, harmonious home. 30. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past. 31. Don't just listen to what someone is saying. Listen to why they are saying it. 32. Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve immortality. 33. Be gentle with the earth. 34. Pray or meditate. There's immeasurable power in it. 35. Never interrupt when you are being flattered. 36. Mind your own business. 37. Don't trust anyone who doesn't close his/her eyes when you kiss. 38. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before. 39. If you make a lot of money, put it to use helping others while you are living. It is wealth's greatest satisfaction. 40. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck. 41. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly. 42. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other. 43. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it. 44. Live with the knowledge that your character is your destiny. 45. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

IMAGINE A WOMAN (Author unknown) Imagine a woman who believes it is right and good she is a woman A woman who honors her experiences and tells her stories Who refuses to carry the sins of others within her body and life. Imagine a woman who believes she is good a woman who trusts and respects herself who listens to her needs and desires, and meets them with tenderness and grace. Imagine a woman who has acknowledged the past's influence on the present A woman who has walked through her past Who has healed into the present. Imagine a woman who authors her own life. A woman who exerts, initiates, and moves on her own behalf Who refuses to surrender except to her truest self and to her wisest voice. Imagine a woman who names her own gods a woman who imagines the divine in her image and likeness who designs her own spirituality and allows it to inform her daily life. Imagine a woman in love with her own body A woman who believes her body is enough, just as it is Who celebrates her body and its rhythms and cycles as an exquisite resource. Imagine a woman who honors the face of the Goddess in her changing face A woman who celebrates the accumulation of her years and her wisdom Who refuses to use precious energy disguising the changes in her body And life. Imagine a woman who values the women in her life a woman who sits in circles of women who is reminded of the truth about herself when she forgets. Imagine yourself as this woman.

As kind as i possibly can to people..... As caring as your mother or grandmother.... As loving as your caretaker priest or daddy... As equal as i can be So understanding even i make myself sick Knowledgeable and full of mother fucking sunshine Considerate of those feelings around me Helpful when i can be Sexy as you tell me Equal to the love that is given me i give back... Taskful Mindful and always a good girl But I can switch to Who gives a fuck about you eat a dick and choke whats love take care of yourself and your problems equality eats ass pussy rules the world understand my middle finger you shit bag eating mother fucker I got knowledge I am not sharing anymore feelings FUCK FEELINGS WHO CARES ABOUT MINE I aint helping you cuz you dont return the favor sexy fuck you IM STALKER MATERIAL GOOD GIRLS FINISH LAST TIME TO PLAYER HATE.... to all my fu family you know who you are you do me well real well those who want something from me and never give back EAT A DICK yeah forget the submission side today Ive been pardoned of that duty SO GUESS WHAT RAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRR for the last 6 months durty dee is back full fledge and as nasty as ever