Ok well its 11:42pm my time and im bored to death my kids are away for the night and the love of my life had to work its not right. SOOOOOOOO now what do I find myself doing? sitting on cherrytap and myspace doing NOTHING!
So i got to thinking. What would i want more then anything in my life at this very moment? and to my suprise....I DONT KNOW. I mean should everyone know what they want in life. I mean i know somethings but i wont put them in here incase someone reads this and thinks im being a pushy GF. But i mean i just dont really know what i want for my life. I want to go to school. I want to raise my family and well i have tried both of them but they just clashed majorly. Maybe what i need to do is just sit back and let life happen. Drop hints here and there to whoever is in control of things but otherwise just let it happen. I mean i think i have alot of things to be thankful for so why complain and worry about what can or could happen. LMAO this is going no where fast. Its running in circles or so it seems. Just rattling on about nothing but trying to unload things at the same time.
I could sit and compain about how my day was but what good would that do. It wont change anything that happened. It wont make the wrongs that has been thrown at me the last couple days right. It wont take the things that i was accused of and make them dissappear. And its definately not going to change the world.
oh well i guess i will end this and find something more constructive to do. Take care all and good night.
