This is WAYYY past dated. My B-day was March the 5th.... lol Anyways. I left it all as I had it that day. My emotional state wasn't great, but I hit right on the mark... on the song I think. kisses n hugs 2 all. :o)
~~~ Johnny ~~~
I'm venting with my dark song I wrote 2 day. So peace@all, aight?
HAPPY F*n B-day 2 me!
I'm still on my Adkins diet.. matter of fact I am not eating much of anything lately. I won't ever give up on life. Never fear... the will to fight... to live... is engrained into me since I left home at 12. But today... I lost a lil more faith in people. 2 day is a day 2 vent, and say F*k it all!! (hugs) Even a mountain can crumble... and lose a few pieces at times, U know? Peace@all. (hugs) Now here... after years of slacking off... is my new METAL song. Out of sorrow.. creativity, spreads it's wings, and takes flight... ~~~ Johnny Edman ~~~ 03/05/2007-4:45 p.m EST
Sleep of Darkness
(Verse 1)
Shattered dreams, my heart it breaks.
I gave you more, than I tried to take.
My soul is dark, my heart grows still.
Nothing matters, nothings real.
I hear your voice, I see your face.
You left a mark, that I can't erase.
Cause now your gone, I'm all alone.
I'm talking to myself at dawn!
(chorus)
Did you ever care for me?
Was it a game!!!
Do you hear my echo'd pain?
I call your name!
Why did you go away?
Was I too deep!
You left me stranded here to die!
Now the darkness beckons me.
(verse 2)
I close my eyes, your here with me.
I smell your hair, I feel your heat.
I taste your kiss, I feel your skin.
Like a fire burns me, deep within.
But it's not real, cause I'm alone.
I cry your name, til my voice is gone.
What can I do? What can I say?
Just like smoke you've gone away!
(verse 3)
What is right? What is wrong?
I ask myself now, for way too long.
I feel the ache, I feel the need.
Inside what's left of me, it bleeds.
Another drink, just 1 more line.
Numbness spreading, through my mind.
I tried my best, but it's all gone.
The darkness calls to take me home!