Well it's the beginning of day 2 since I made my choice to say goodbye. I've gotta say this is harder than I thought. I'd forgotten how hard it is to say goodbye to someone you feel so much for. Guess I'm a little rusty, not that I want to make a habit of having to make decisions of this kind. I guess I didnt think it would effect me as profoundly as it has. Thought that I was strong enough to not let it get to me, but the truth is it ripped my heart out. I know me doing what did was for the best, but that doesnt make it any less painful.I hope one day he'll understand my decision, see that I had his best interest at heart. Uggh I wish I could turn my brain off.. It feels like it's about to melt from over usage. I feel like my heart has been placed in a vice, but I guess that's what heartbreak feels like.
