Clemson Chick's blog: "poems"

Deep inside the depths of my mind I open the doors to see what I'll find Perhaps uncover a clue from the past To put my nightmares to rest at last It holds me back and makes me afraid Does it fortell the future already made? Does the guilt within stay forever with me Will I be trapped inside and no one will see? She's always there in my dreams dressed in white and young she seems Calling my name and wanting to play Showing me things and wanting me to stay She points to a grave in which isn't her own And tells me to look at the name on the stone I clutch my chest and gasp for air I fall to my knees, wake me from this nightmare She sits on a swing swinging away Calling my name she has more to say Please stay with me, we'll have lots of fun We can play outside and in the sun I look at her with tears in my eyes I'm sorry I can't, I don't want to die Please stop trying, just leave me alone I won't go with you, I want to go home She shakes her head and whispers to me Don't you see what's happening, what's meant to be You're fighting your demons and they have grown What happened wasn't your fault, i did it all on my own My eyes open wide as I awake from the night The light shining in making everything right This has become part of my sleep Dreaming about her it makes me weep Until I find the cause of this pain I will try my best from going insane I want to make peace and end these dreams And forever put an end to my silent screams