Julzzzzz's blog: "my skribblings..."

As many times as it has been bruised, shattered, and broken

This heart proves resilient and is again re-awoken

With countless tears that have bled from the blue depth of these eyes

So have these soft lips also breathed many a loving sigh

Decades long worth of pain relived

Serve as refreshed reminders of new life ahead

To have ever been dumb-lucked enough to know this pure heart

Is to also know that you should’ve been smart enough to hold on from the start

Though when my brokenness first resonates, it feels like black coal

Eventually the cold hardness resigns, and you’re now part of my soul

Heartbreak doesn’t negate that a known love exists

Though walls do find themselves a bit higher as that love turns amiss

I know where my heart has tread past and present

Now my curious path meanders toward future optimistic ascent

I believe that we will always ponder the “what if…”, and you will always wonder about me

But we know that our parallel paths go no further, as our oneness is drowned by the quickly swelling sea

I cannot look behind me, I can only advance

Knowing that someday, I again will give love a chance

The scar tissue that lives deep inside of my core

Will never prevent me from wanting to soar

Hindsight is twenty-twenty, as the seemingly green hue on the other side turns its truthful shade of brown

And when you look back to see “us”, you’ll realize very quickly of your error renown

The regrets that haunt you, will never be mine; you share them with none

Because I will live on, thriving, in the loving warm kisses of the sun

Though sometimes, briefly forgotten, I know my heart is always true

My resilience has proven itself once more, as this burden belongs to only you