LADY KATHERINEREAL LIFE WIFE OF LATENITE...'s blog: "Relationships"

WE ALL HAVE THEM,SOME IS AN ILLUSION OF OUR SLEEP r.e.m.,BUT THEN THERE ARE SOME THAT CONSUMES OUR NIGHTMARES,WAKES US UP AND MAKES US CRY.THEY ARENT DREAMS OF GOULISH GHOST.THOUGH THEY CAN BE OUR GHOST OF THE PAST.BUT THE DREAMS WE LEFT IN ANOTHER RELM.THE ONES THAT BROKE OUR HEARTS,AND MADE US CRUMBLE.MADE US WISH,OUR LIFE NEVER BEGAN.THE ONE PROMISE IN OUR WORLD,AND BE TAKEN AWAY FORM US WITH AN BLINK OF AN EYE.YOU PACK FROM THE BOTTOM UP,AND YOU DONT KNOW WHICH WAY YOU WANT TO TURN,AND DEATH YOUR ONLY WISH.AND MAD BECAUSE YOU WOKE UP AND YOU ARE STILL HERE.TO FACE ANOTHER DAY.MY DREAMS WERE OF DEATH BUT IN A DIFFERENT WAY.HELLISH DREAMS OF THE TORMENTS MY SOUL FACED OVER THE INTERIMS OF THE PAST.AND ONE DAY I SNAPPED.SOMETHING INSIDE OF ME,WOKE UP AND SAID ENOUGH.I DID IT TO MYSELF,AND I HAD TO GET ME OUT OF THIS FEELING THAT IT ONLY HAPPENS TO ME.IT DONT EVERYBODY GOES THROUGH SOME HELL.IT IS WHAT YOU HAVE LEARN,HOW YOU HANDLE IT AND WHAT YOU DO ABOUT IT. WELL I AM HERE TO TELL YOU AFTER SHATTER DREAMS,AND BROKEN PROMISES.A WALL THAT STOOD 18 FEET HIGH,AND KEPT ME IN THE COLD.WAS TORE DOWN. MY NIGHTMARES WENT AWAY,AND I BEGAN TO LIVE AGAIN. AND I DO THIS ONLY BECAUSE SOMEONE PEEKED AROUND THE CORNER,AND MADE ME WHOLE,MADE ME ALIVE AGAIN,MADE ME FEEL WHAT I WANTED TO FELT ALL ALONE.AND TO HIM I HAVE MUCH HONOR AND RESPECT FOR HE PICKED ME UP,DUSTED OFF THE DIRT,THREW HIS JACKET AROUND MY COLD BODY,AND LOVE ME,LIKE I HAVE NEVER BEEN LOVED.AND I HAD GIVEN UP ALL HOPE. AND A LEAP OF FAIT GAVE ME BACK,WHO I WANTED TO BE.AND FOR THIS I CAN NEVER THANK HIM ENOUGH,AND I WILL BE SINGING PRAISES TO GOD OR SENDING ME MY HERO.MY SOULMATE,MY EVERLASTING LOVE.AND THIS TIME I HAVE GOT RIGHT NO DOUBT. BUT,O YOU THAT HAS LOVED AND LOSSED DONT GIVE UP WITH A BLINK OF AN EYE DONT WISH A LIFE AWAY,WHEN,DIEING IS FINAL END.NO CHANGING YOUR MIND WHEN YOU DIE YOU DIE.I BEEN TO DEATH TWICE OVER,OH IT IS A BEAUTIFUL PLACE.BUT GOD HAS A MASTER PLAN FOR ME,AND I HAVE FOUND MY DESTINY IN A MASTER POET.NEVER GIVE UP YOUR SOULNOR WHO YOU ARE.IF YOU ARE LUCKY AS I AM,THE MAN WHO LOVES YOU OR THE WOMAN,WILL NEVER TAKE AWAY YOU,BUT,LOVE YOU FOR BEING WHO YOU ARE.I SAY THIS TO YOU MY DEAR FRIENDS,BECAUSE AS FREINDS YOU KNOW WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH,AND NOW YOU SEE MY HEART AND HOW HAPPY TERRY HAS MADE ME.AND TO MY DAUGHTER,I KNOW YOU THINK YOUR WORLD HAS ENDED,BUT,IT JUST BEGAN,LOOK OVER THE HORIZON,LOOK ON THAT MOUNTAION WHO LOVES YOU WILL BE THERE TO RAISE YOU UP,HIGHER THAN YOU HAVE EVER BEEN.AND TRUE LOVE CAN BE A LIL BLUE GUY WITH A PACIFIER IN HIS MOUTH,OR YOUR BEST FRIEND.LOVE YOUR LIFE,FOR YOU HAVE IT TO LIVE.BE THANKFUL FOR WHAY YOU HAVE IN FRONT OF YOU,NOT WHAT YOU WANT.THEY ARE DREAMS DREAMS CAN COME TO ,IF YOU MAKE THEM HAPPEN.

SEND ME A COWBOY,THAT WILL SING TO ME ON A MOONLIT NIGHT,BY THE SOUND OF THE WATERS EDGE.SEND ME A COWBOY THAT WILL RIDE THE PLAINS UNDER THE STARS,AND TAKE ME WITH.SEND ME A COWBOY THAT LIVES BY THE CODE,AND YET KNOWS HOW TO HOLD A LADY.SEND ME A COWBOY WITH A BLACK HAT,AND A DUSTER AND SPURS ON HIS DUSTED BOOTS.SEND ME A COWBOY THAT RIDES THE BRONCO ROUGH,AND TREATS HIM WITH RESPECT.SEND ME A COWBOY,THAT DANCES ARM IN ARM WITH HIS LADY,AND ROPES THE MEANEST STEER.SEND ME A COWBOY THAT DREAMS OF THE LAND,BUT WAKES UP WITH ME IN HIS THOUGHTS.SEND ME A COWBOY THAT CAN TALK FROM THE HEART,AND YET, LOOK STRAIGHT IN YOUR EYES ,AND BLUSH.SEND ME A COWBOY THAT DON'T TEAR MY WORLD APART,BUT ROPE ME THE MOON.IF YOU SEND ME A COWBOY JUST LIKE THIS ,THEN THIS COWGIRL,WILL SMILE UPON THE HEAVENS,CARE FOR NO OTHER.AND SHALL DANCE IN A MOONLIT NIGHT,BY THE WATERS EDGE

YOU KNOW WE ALL GO THROUGH DIFFERENT THINGS IN OUR LIFE,AND IT DOESN'T MATTER IF WE ARE WOMEN OR MEN,IT HURTS THE SAME WAY.TEARS OUR HEART AND LEAVES THE SOUL TO BLEED,IT REALLY DEPENDS ON HOW WE HANDLE IT,WHAT WE SAY,AND HOW WE REALLY FEEL.FOR THE LAST NINE MONTHS,I LET MY GUARD DOWN,AND I GAVE IT ALL.WITHOUT ASKING FOR ANYTHING,YET,I GUESS I ASK FOR TOO MUCH,I WANTED TO BE IMPORTANT.TO BE THE FIRST THOUGHT,AND THE LAST THOUGHT.IT DIDNT HAPPEN.I KNOW WOMEN ARENT THE ONLY ONES THAT FEELS THAT WAY,MEN DO ALSO.IT IS HARDER FOR A MAN TO SHOW EMOTION BECAUSE IT IS BREADED IN HIM THAT WAY.WOMAN CRY.MEN DON'T.I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY IN A RELATIONSHIP YOU TRY TO CHANGE THE ONE PERSON YOU FELL IN LOVE WITH,JUST AS THEY ARE,THEN 3 MONTHS LATER YOU WONT THEM TO BE SOMEONE ELSE.DO AS I SAY NOT AS I DO.IT IS OKAY FOR ME BUT NOT FOR YOU.LEVEL GROUND MY ROOM MATE SAIDS LEVEL GROUND.WELL I HAVE GIVEN UP ON FINDING MY TRUE LOVE,MISTER RIGHT,AND MY KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR.THEY DONT EXIST.THERE WILL BE NO MOON LIGHT DANCING FOR ME,NO ROMANCE THAT SURPRISE ME EVERYDAY.NO FLOWERS AT MY DOOR,NO ROMANTIC DINNERS.AND THAT IS OKAY.BECAUSE,I HAVE COME TO TERMS,THAT I REALLY NEED TO KNOW ME.SEE I LOST THAT OVER THE LAST FEW MONTHS.ME WHO I AM,AND WHERE I AM GOING.SEE I AM NOT LOOKING FOR A SEXUAL PARTNER,NOR SOMEONE TO CAM,i DONT EVEN CAM.I DONT WANT SOMEONE TO COME ONTO ME BECAUSE THEY THINK I AM EASY.EASY I AM NOT YOU HAVE TO EARN ME.I AM LOOKING FOR SOMEONE THAT CAN TALK TO ME ABOUT HIS FISHING TRIP AND GLOW AS HE TELLS ME.I AM LOOKING FOR SOMEONE IN A MIDDLE OF A RAIN STORM DANCE WITH ME.IT IS NOT ALL ABOUT SEX.IT IS GETTING IN TOUCH WITH YOUR EMOTIONS.IT IS TREATING HER WITH RESPECT AND LIKE A QUEEN,AND IT IS TREATING HIM LIKE HE IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN YOUR LIFE.IT IS A LONG TALK IN THE PARK,AND A NITE OF GAZING AT THE STARS.BUT UNFORTUNATELY,I HAVE LEARNED THAT IT ISN'T THE TOUCH,IT IS THE FEELING.IT WILL TAKE ONE HELL OF A MAN TO EVER,BREAK MY DEFENSES,AND I HOPE SOMEWHERES HE IS OUT THERE.BUT,HE BETTER BEWARE,I WILL NEVER BE SECOND BEST AGAIN.IT IS ALL OR NONE.I DESERVE THAT.I NEED THAT.IT IS MT RIGHTS.AND IN RETURN,I WILL GIVE YOU THE KNOWNST THAT AT THE END,I GAVE YOU THE MOON.DANCE WITH ME IN THE RAIN.WALK WITH ME BY THE RIVER.SHARE MY LIFE,WITH GLADNESS,AND A WANT TO NOT BECAUSE I NEED.SING TO ME IN THE MOONLIT NIGHT,AND WHISPER TO ME IN THE EARLY MORNING SUN.NEVER EXPECT MORE THAN YOU GIVE.BUT,TRY TO GIVE IT YOUR ALL.BE THERE WHEN THE DAYS ARE DARK AND KISS ME IN THE MORNING.ALL I CAN ASK,ALL I WANT,ALL I NEED,LEVEL GROUND,GIVE ME BACK WHAT I GIVE YOU.DANCE WITH ME IN THE RAIN.

Sometimes we go toward a direction,that leads us into the possibilities,but never the reality.We see things in one light,but actually darkness at the end of the tunnel.We hide in fantasy,and forget what is real and what isnt.We set out to share our lives with this one person,only to have our dreams shattered and there is no turning back.We pick up the broken pieces,and we go onward.But.how can we ever be the same,as we was before we open that door and walked in.And I walked in,and bloomed.The pedals are faltering,and the morning dew catches the tip and slowly drips to the ground.And this time I will walk along.And shall never open that door again,and walk through.It is best to keep that in what i was,that in which made me whole,it the bottom drawer,in a box.Will I ever love again,probably not,I havent found the one thing I want,ever woman's dream,to be swept off her feet,and be number one.I have always been second best.And that is where I will stay.But,I will take second best,and be happy,then be first ,and be miserable.I have came to relize that fairytale,relationships and true loves don't exist,it is just a over powering feeling that hurts like hell.So,I say live one day at a time,and hope you survive the next time,someone tries to open the door and have you step through.My advice,slam the damn door quickly and walk away.

Internet Relationships: This is everybody questions these days,Where you met them ? How long how they know them,and the top question is "Did you meet them on the net?"I came from a little hick town in the heart of Texas,where life is so slow that,before you know it you are wondering where you are heading to.A few seeks a new life outside of this old oil town,and some stays.Those who stays,never gets out of the box,and never see life outside a window,always looking in and never looking out.Those who leaves tries their damnest not to go back.Well,I am one of those that left and did'nt,and don't want to go back into a town,that roles the street up at six.The only bar scene is inviting your family over for Saturday night poker,and chips and beer,bring your on.Where family is suppose to help family , but, on their terms.Don't asked them for soda money,they have to save it for slot machines.Whatever you do don't never tell them, you are about to get into some money,because suddenly the whole town,knows,and loves you.So here I am.Setting in this apartment looking out this window,and I bet you are wondering what brought me here,to this point.An Internet Relationship.I dusted the Texas dust off of me,packed up and headed toward the one person,that made virtual reality,become real to me.And I think that is what we all want,reality.I guess,it is ok to have cam sex,as long as you dont hurt someone in the process.All fun and games right.And I guess it is ok to flood your page with all women,or all men,to each his on.I like the mixture,myself.When you make a commitment,and you touch that one for real,the virtual leaves and reality sets in and you are lost.Hopelessly.You rely on this thing we call the wide world web,and forget how to pick up a phone and hear that voice,and that is all you need is that voice telling you are ok.That it will be ok. When is the last time you called your mom,or sister,or brother,if they are not on the web and in your friends list forget it,they have to be on that most important list.And what about that love of your life if they weren't on the net talking to you,then who are you talking to and who are they talking to.Do you think it is right to promise others things to other people or to be what they want you to be,why cant you be yourself.I did that,became a phantom,boy was I unhappy.So guys wouldn't hit on me.And in reality,all it takes is to put taken,in a relationship,and they disappear.If I wanted to play the games on net all I had to do is click on the net and say I am here ,and Texas I could have stayed.A machines can't hold you when sick,it can't comfort when you are lonely,and it damn sure can give you your needs.Oh it subsitutes,a lonely night,or a cry of passion,but,can a Internet relationship be more than that.Screens,and cams.What would we do if there wasn't no net.Well we would marry close by,write long letters,and talk on the phone for hours.God I wish it was like that sometimes.I don't have a clue if they work,having a relationship on the net where millions of women are laying out in the raw,or guys strutting their stuff.You have to have a strong heart,and very much in love with that person,to not wander away.You go through so much.Sickness,spouse,relationships,dead internet.Do they make the relationship or do they put an end to it.,See I didn't travel so many miles to walk away,I am just beginning.Now,on the other hand,are you strong,because a weak person can't do it.Do I except what fate gives me or do I correct it? Do I set here day after day and ask myself where I am heading ,or do I just go onward,with determination,and get what I so deserve.Do I have patient,or is patients running out.Damn I can't answer it,they say I am made of iron,but,when I am sick,and I look around,and there is nobody there,and the net down,are you wondering what I am thinking? My Daddy always said put your feet in somebodies elses shoes walk their path,feel their sorrow,feels their needs,and become their desire.I was told once,I have a stubborn Texas Pride,well,I guess I do,but,that was because my oldest sister drilled it in my head these words'"Be proud of who,where you came from,let no man take it away,and kick him in the ass if he tries."I set here and I see the Ontario Snow melting,and I dream of a spring,with my internet love,and we have touch,and kissed,and became one.We are two souls,in a whisper of a wind.So what is more important,the screen between you,or the sheets? MMMMMMMM,I know my answer.Let me know yours.I chose this destiny,and curiousity kills this cat so I will seek it through and call a journey,and see where tommorrow brings.Maybe,in the arms of my knight,my cowboy,my soulmate,my destiny.Fate believe it or not,It is there in us all.If I had a rose for everytime I thought my world is shattered,I would have a flower garden,and after the tears,and days of thoughts.I realize something isn't my flower garden beautiful? As far as internet relationships,well I know several that has been swept off their feet,and the road wasnt easy,Would I myself do it again.Without a doubt.

I HAVE BEEN ON FUBAR WHEN IT WAS CHERRY TAP AND TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH I MISS CHERRY TAP.JUST THE NAME FUBAR HAS CHANGED THE FEEL OF THIS SITE.IT IS LIKE SUDDENLY THE SEX KING RULES THIS SITE,AND WE ARE HIS SERVANTS.ALL WE NEED IS THE ROOM FULL OF NAKED MEN AND WOMAN WITH WHIP OOOPS WE GOT THAT DONT WE.I HAVE SEEN SO MANY COUPLES BREAK UP LONG REALTIONSHIP BECAUSE THEY BECAME FUBAR JUNKIES.NOW MY DESCRIPTION OF A JUNKIE IS A MAN OR WOMAN THAT CANT WALK AWAY FROM THE FEEDING OF THE SEX DIVAS OR THE MAN TOYS.THEY BUILD THEIR SITE TO ENTICE THE HUNGER OF PREDIATOR AND BOY DO THEY TAKE A BITE.WE HAVE LOUNGES,AND ALL TYPES OF PEOPLE AND I KNOW IT IS ALSO OUT IN THE WORLD.BUT,I SAY IF YOU WANT TO GO GET LAID GO GET YOU SOMEONE AND DO IT BEHIND A CLOSE DOOR.WHERE IT SHOULD BE.NOW I KNOW THERE ARE NICE SITES OUT THERE WITH FAMILY AND KIDS.BUT LEAVE YOUR KIDS OUT OF THIS SITE.TO MANY SEXUAL PLAYS GOING ON,TO EASY FOR A SEXUAL PREDIATOR TO GET YOUR INFORMATION AND HOW SAFE IS YOUR CHILD.YOU KNOW I AM TIRED.TIRED OF BEING NICE AND ALL I GET BACK IS SEX SEX SEX,I WANT SEX BUT NOT ON A SITE.LADIES I CANT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND WHY YOU SET YOUR MORALS SO LOW YOU ENJOY SHWOING YOUR BODY DO THAT IN THE BEDROOM,AND GUYS LUST YOUR GIRLFRIEND OR YOUR WIFE INSTEAD OF WHAT HIS BETWEEN YOUR LEGS.LADIES THINK ABOUT IT WOULD YOU WANT YOUR MAN TO STRUCK HIS STUFF TO ALL THESE WOMEN,WOULD YOU EVEN WANT IM IF HE DID.I WOULDNT,AND MEN WOULD YOU REALLY MARRIED A WOMAN THAT OPEN UP HER BLOUSE AND FLASHES HER BOOBS TO ONE MILLION MEN.WELL I AM IN A RELATIONSHIP AND I LOVE MY MAN,BUT,I SEE THIS PLACE COMING BETWEEN US MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY,BECAUSE OF THE SEX,AND THE PLAYMATES,AND IT IS COOL MAKES HIM FEEL WANTED BY ALL,WHEN HIS ALL STANDING RIGHT BEFORE HIM.SO I END THIS WITH THIS.THIS IS HOW I FEEL ABOUT FUBAR,I WISH IT WAS CHERRY TAP AGAIN,BUT I SEE IT ISNT AND IF I LOSE MY SITE BECAUSE I BLOG THIS OH WELL A BLOG YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO SAY WHAT YOU FEEL.THIS IS HOW I FEEL.YOU ARE FREE,OVER 18 AND CAN FEEL HOWEVER YOU WANT.YES FOR ME I HAVE TO THINK ABOUT ANOTHER DAY OF WALKING AWAY FROM HERE AND TRYING TO PUT MY LIFE BACK ON THE RIGHT TRACK,AND IT ISNT FINDING PLEASURE ON A SEX FEEDING SITE.

"If tomorrow starts without me, And I'm not there to see, If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today, While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say. I know how much you love me, As much as I love you, And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too; But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand, that an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand, And said my place was ready, In heaven far above, And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye, For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die. I had so much to live for, So much left yet to do, it seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad, I thought of all that we shared, And all the fun we had. If I could relive yesterday, Just even for a while, I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile. But then I fully realized, That this could never be, For emptiness and memories, would take the place of me. And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss some tomorrow, I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow. But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home. When God looked down and smiled at me, From His great golden throne, He said, "This is eternity, And all I've promised you." Today your life on earth is past, but here life starts anew. I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last, and since each day is the same way, There's no longing for the past. So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart, For every time you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart

Throughout our journey we walk many roads,and surrender to many troubles.We walk alone,or We walk together.We spend our lifetime creating our futures.And bound by the clouds that shadows us.We strive for that certain peace,yet blinded when it is staring us in the face.We sat in a lonely room tormenting our very essence,yet,all we have to do is open the door and take that first step.We see our life in a hopeless manner,yet we do not,look what we have acccomplished.We hide behind the mirror,yet,we do not see the image.We sat alone in a dark alley and we cry,yet,we do nothing to pick ourselves up.We blame others for our shortcomings ,but,we dont search deep down why. We hide behind walls,to pertect ourselves,yet,not willing to tear it down.We see the world as angery substance,but,not willing to change it.We unite when there is trouble,but,walk away,when all is said and done.We fight for our rights,but not of a child's.Sometimes we hate life,yet we cannot see what life has giving.We,cuzz,and raise cane,speak our peace,fight with the ones we love,kill the ones we hate.And forget where we come from.We have forgotten how to laugh,because we are so tied to our sorrows.We kiss death,and say hell with life.Somewheres we are in between,neither there or here.God does only cries for the living,And the devil is laughing.Somewhere,somehow,someday.We will live. Maybe not in this lifetime.Maybe never.Maybe tommorrow.Maybe someday.God only knows.