Internet Relationships:
This is everybody questions these days,Where you met them ? How long how they know them,and
the top question is "Did you meet them on the net?"I came from a little hick town in the heart of Texas,where life is so slow that,before you know it you are wondering where you are heading to.A few seeks a new life outside of this old oil town,and some stays.Those who stays,never gets out of the box,and never see life outside a window,always looking in and never looking out.Those who leaves tries their damnest not to go back.Well,I am one of those that left and did'nt,and don't want to go back into a town,that roles the street up at six.The only bar scene is inviting your family over for Saturday night poker,and chips and beer,bring your on.Where family is suppose to help family , but, on their terms.Don't asked them for soda money,they have to save it for slot machines.Whatever you do don't never tell them, you are about to get into some money,because suddenly the whole town,knows,and loves you.So here I am.Setting in this apartment looking out this window,and I bet you are wondering what brought me here,to this point.An Internet Relationship.I dusted the Texas dust off of me,packed up and headed toward the one person,that made virtual reality,become real to me.And I think that is what we all want,reality.I guess,it is ok to have cam sex,as long as you dont hurt someone in the process.All fun and games right.And I guess it is ok to flood your page with all women,or all men,to
each his on.I like the mixture,myself.When you make a commitment,and you touch that one for
real,the virtual leaves and reality sets in and you are lost.Hopelessly.You rely on this thing we call the wide world web,and forget how to pick up a phone and hear that voice,and that is all you need is that voice telling you are ok.That it will be ok. When is the last time you called your mom,or sister,or brother,if they are not on the web and in your friends list forget it,they have to be on that most important list.And what about that love of your life if they weren't on the net talking to you,then who
are you talking to and who are they talking to.Do you think it is right to promise others things to other people or to be what they want you to be,why cant you be yourself.I did that,became a phantom,boy was I unhappy.So guys wouldn't hit on me.And in reality,all it takes is to put taken,in a relationship,and they disappear.If I wanted to play the games on net all I had to do is click on the net and say I am here ,and Texas I could have stayed.A machines can't hold you when sick,it can't comfort when you are lonely,and it damn sure can give you your needs.Oh it subsitutes,a lonely night,or a cry of passion,but,can a Internet relationship be more than that.Screens,and cams.What would we do if there wasn't no net.Well we would marry close by,write long letters,and talk on the phone for hours.God I wish it was like that sometimes.I don't have a clue if they work,having a relationship on the net where millions of women are laying out in the raw,or guys strutting their stuff.You have to have a strong heart,and very much in love with that person,to not wander away.You go through so
much.Sickness,spouse,relationships,dead internet.Do they make the relationship or do they put an end to it.,See I didn't travel so many miles to walk away,I am just beginning.Now,on the other hand,are you strong,because a weak person can't do it.Do I except what fate gives me or do I correct it? Do I set here day after day and ask myself where I am heading ,or do I just go onward,with determination,and get
what I so deserve.Do I have patient,or is patients running out.Damn I can't answer it,they say I am made of iron,but,when I am sick,and I look around,and there is nobody there,and the net down,are you wondering what I am thinking? My Daddy always said put your feet in somebodies elses shoes walk their path,feel their sorrow,feels their needs,and become their desire.I was told once,I have a stubborn
Texas Pride,well,I guess I do,but,that was because my oldest sister drilled it in my head these words'"Be proud of who,where you came from,let no man take it away,and kick him in the ass if he tries."I set here and I see the Ontario Snow melting,and I dream of a spring,with my internet love,and we have
touch,and kissed,and became one.We are two souls,in a whisper of a wind.So what is more
important,the screen between you,or the sheets? MMMMMMMM,I know my answer.Let me know
yours.I chose this destiny,and curiousity kills this cat so I will seek it through and call a journey,and see where tommorrow brings.Maybe,in the arms of my knight,my cowboy,my soulmate,my destiny.Fate believe it or not,It is there in us all.If I had a rose for everytime I thought my world is shattered,I would have a flower garden,and after the tears,and days of thoughts.I realize something isn't my flower
garden beautiful?
As far as internet relationships,well I know several that has been swept off their feet,and the road wasnt easy,Would I myself do it again.Without a doubt.
