Capt Morgan's blog: "ravings of a lunatic"

FAKE FRIENDS: Never ask for food. REAL FRIENDS: are the reason you have no food. FAKE FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr / Mrs REAL FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM FAKE FRIENDS: bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong REAL FRIENDS: Would sit next to you saying 'Dawg ... we screwed up... but that was fun!' FAKE FRIENDS: have never seen you cry REAL FRIENDS: cry with you FAKE FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back REAL FRIENDS: keep your stuff so long they forget it's yours FAKE FRIENDS: know a few things about you REAL FRIENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you FAKE FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing REAL FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds' butt that left you FAKE FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door REAL FRIENDS: Walk right in and say 'I'M HOME!' FAKE FRIENDS: Are for awhile REAL FRIENDS: Are for life FAKE FRIENDS: will talk bad to the person who talks bad about you. REAL FRIENDS: Will knock the person out that talked bad about you FAKE FRIENDS: Would ignore this REAL FRIENDS: Will send this to all their real friends and hope to get it back! If you were killed today, I'm sorry I wouldn't be able to come to your funeral, because I'd be in jail for killing the person who did it.

Confusion I hear, it's the only sound Like the crest of a wave, Love comes crashing down This feeling in my heart always sustains But now the cold searing in my soul remains I thought I could give you all you needed My heart grew with yours forever seeded I never wanted your past only a future with you Our souls bound together with permanent glue I can now only see our past in your beautiful smile When I touched your lips my heart raced a mile What once was, what we built together All the sweet words, the promise of forever What once seemed so clear has now become clouded The motives of others keep my mind shrouded Why you say "freedom" with your new seperation I cannot tell, it seems like incarceration A person seeks to hold you away from my heart I saw it from the beginning, I knew from the start Your world and mine seem so far away now I want to be a part of you world I just don't know how I cannot live in pain and suppression I feel like I'm slipping into regression A part of my past I never wanted to live again So close to becoming worse than then I sometimes look back to our intimate pleasures Locked away in my heart like golden treasures Then like flash in my mind seems to skim A vision of you sharing those teasures with him I want to tear out my vision, drown out my cries I cannot blind myself to whats behind my eyes Will it get better, I cannot know, I cannot tell All I know now is I miss your taste, touch, and smell All I can promise is you will remain in my heart Maybe in time a future can start For now I am afraid of myself, afraid what to do I cannot share at this level, I don't want to share you

I do not know how my courage stays to live until the end of days to be myself the whole day through when life always seems so confused the fragile existence of the heart to know when it is time to part finite is the human emotion until you come upon the notion that you know in your heart, you care for that pain, that you know is there the passion of oneness, the feeling of loss, the incompleteness, when I realize the cost, the heart longs to move on, but I will stand, the will to live on clutched in my dying hand the story has a beginning, do not pretend the heart will find love in the end. Today(like every day) is a good day to die