Confusion I hear, it's the only sound
Like the crest of a wave, Love comes crashing down
This feeling in my heart always sustains
But now the cold searing in my soul remains
I thought I could give you all you needed
My heart grew with yours forever seeded
I never wanted your past only a future with you
Our souls bound together with permanent glue
I can now only see our past in your beautiful smile
When I touched your lips my heart raced a mile
What once was, what we built together
All the sweet words, the promise of forever
What once seemed so clear has now become clouded
The motives of others keep my mind shrouded
Why you say "freedom" with your new seperation
I cannot tell, it seems like incarceration
A person seeks to hold you away from my heart
I saw it from the beginning, I knew from the start
Your world and mine seem so far away now
I want to be a part of you world I just don't know how
I cannot live in pain and suppression
I feel like I'm slipping into regression
A part of my past I never wanted to live again
So close to becoming worse than then
I sometimes look back to our intimate pleasures
Locked away in my heart like golden treasures
Then like flash in my mind seems to skim
A vision of you sharing those teasures with him
I want to tear out my vision, drown out my cries
I cannot blind myself to whats behind my eyes
Will it get better, I cannot know, I cannot tell
All I know now is I miss your taste, touch, and smell
All I can promise is you will remain in my heart
Maybe in time a future can start
For now I am afraid of myself, afraid what to do
I cannot share at this level, I don't want to share you
