I am so far fucking gone away from myself. I am slowly slipping away from my sanity and my conscience. My family and I went to my brother's place up in Iowa. He had asked me to "Be Prepared", as he had a dog that needed put down. I did the dirty deed, without hesitation. Then I dug a hole and buried him. It was all too easy. I don't really know why. It kind of scares me a bit.