Yesterday ended up being awesome, until my ex stopped by and brought a world of drama into it. I was simply giving her some messages she had adn she was giving me attitude about it. So needless to say I was confused.
We of course ended up fighting. Although after the fight I realized something. Words that she had previously used to hurt me hand no effect on me. I didn't get too upset where I was not able to remember the points I was trying to make about me being tired of her disrespecting me and about how I was sick of her lies and, that maybe trying to be friends was a bad idea.
She had no logical answer for any of this, I left the situation feeling content knowing for the first time in a long time that things were going to be ok.
Now a new day is here. I have truly made my first step of getting on with my life and that makes me happy. I had almost forgotten what it felt like to be happy and proud of myself. I had gotten into a funk and I doubted myself. I see now that I can't do that I have to believe in me, I have to accept me, I have to love me, because if I don't do these things other people wont believe in me they wont accept me and they sure as hell wont love me.
After yesterday I am ready for today, tommorrow and everyday after that. I think the rest of my life just might be something that I can't wait to see has in store for me.
