Well I decided something today. I decided that I have to be happy. No more moping, no more regret or second guessing myself. Things happen in life people grow together as well as apart.
Yes I still care and I still worry, but I can't forget about me. I can't forget that my happiness is important too. So it's time to start being happy again to start loving me again.
Now I know this is easy to say and I remember when it was easy to do. I have some good friends here and in real life to remind me of when I forgetting about everything in my life I have that I should be grateful and happy for.
I have friends and family that love me. Seeing as how that is a big part of life, trying to find love and acceptance. I shouldn't take for granted the love and acceptance that I have managed to find.
Yes I lost someone I loved greatly. Yes it's sad that we might not even be able to stay friends,but as I have said my whole life nobody is prefekt. Nobody is 100% at anything. There are ups and downs to everything and I am being small minded by not accepting these downs with the same grace and enthusiasm as I did the ups.
I have to take this all and use it to make me better, stronger, smarter, and most important happier than I was before.
This is cliche as it comes. Today is the first day of the rest of my life, there is no reason to waste it worried about something I have no control over.
Thanks to all my friends out there. I love you all and I am grateful for every last one of you
