WiTcHy KiTTeN's blog: "Poetry"

This morning as I look out
On a cold and rainy sad November day
I sit here and wonder why the angels cry
When it was you they took away

Are they your tears of happiness
For rejoining the one you loved
Or are they your tears of sadness
For those of us you left below.

Do you know how much you will be missed?
And how much you are still loved
Time to time look down and see
Us crying for you above.

Can angels come to visit us?
I believe that they are always there
To watch over us and keep us safe
And to show us that they still care.

A baby’s smile into an empty room
A familiar scent within the air
A song plays when were thinking of you
The subtle hints that you are there.

Will you be our angel?
Come visit us every now and then
So I won’t be so sad to say goodbye today
Because today is not really the end.

So for now just please be our angel
Until the day when we meet again
We still love you and we will miss you
Mother…..Grandmother…Friend.

Will you be there with me until the very end
Will you be my soulmate, my lover my friend
Will you stand beside me In good times and bad
Will you hold me & comfort me in happy and sad.
Will you promise to love me, not break my heart
Will you promise to not lie, a fresh clean start.
Will you promise to hold me, kiss me each day
Will you say "I love you" and mean it always
When its time to leave me, your time to move on
Will you tell me goodbye, my friend, my love 

I'm gone.

I'm sorry if I dissapointed you...

Not the woman you wanted me to be

..not beautiful enough..thin enough..

Not the mother you all expect me to be

..to leniant..not stern enough.

Not the friend you all thought I should be

..not around enough..cant help enough

Not the lover you expected me to be.

..too passionate ..too emotional.

Not the daughter you thought I would be

..not responsible enough..not smart enough

Its ok though because I'm disappointed in myself...

Not the person I thought I was..

Not the person I expected myself to be.

I've tried to hard to make everyone happy

and all i've done is manage to disappoint everyone in everyway

I lost sight in who I was..what I need to be for myself

I cannot be everything to everyone.  I'm simply me.

I need help sometimes too..

I have stresses like everyone else..

I struggle to keep my head above water..

I wear too many hats and dont ask for help..

I cry myself to sleep almost every night..

I break...just like everyone else.

I try to remember the happier times

Now and then I just sit and cry

Missing you more and more

As the countless days go by.

You were like the shining sun

You brightened our darkened days

With your smile and your laughter

And with every word you’d say

We had our share of happy times

We’d often laugh so hard we cried

Even though you're not here to reminisce

I cherish those moments deep inside.

You were too young to go and leave us

You were my kind and wonderful friend

You will be missed every single moment

Until that day when we meet again

There are so many things I never said

For this I will always regret

But I love you, and I will miss you

And I promise, that you, I will never forget.

I know you are in a better place

With family whom you love

Listen always to our prayers to you

Our guardian angel up above

Spitting words laced with venom expecting to cause pain

Your bite has no affect unless i allow it too

Your hatred means nothing to me, you mean nothing

Your a bitter soul lashing out at others

Wallowing in your own misery

Nothing more then a snake in the grass..

Your anger &  hate will consume you like a wildfire

 I will simply sit back and watch you burn...

The Angel of Death
He calls out to me...
His wide spread wings
That only I can see
The seducing black figure
I cannot see his face
Is he finally here for me?
Opening for my embrace.
Taking me away
To the realm beyond
Away from all this pain
No more need to carry on
He starts moving towards me
I close my eyes and cry..
Whisper my I love you's
...I'll going home...Goodbye