aspiringwriter's blog: "Poems"

Word of Sins

Noone is perfect we all make mistakes its about how we learn from the ones that we made. Thats how we know the kind of person we are... Thats how we know the kind of person we are.

For although I have sinned and this I admit my mistakes were not ones that cant be forgiven by the ones that I love or the ones that love me so why must I keep being judged so harshly.I am not perfect by any means and deserve to be judged for many things. A life in thy kingdom may not be for me but a life of damnation seems far too extreme.

I have no regrets or any will to forget the sins I have commited during this life I neglect. I know that I strayed from the path that was set but please God dont lose faith in the man you protect.

For although I have sinned and this I admit my mistakes were not ones that cant be forgiven by the ones that I love or the ones that love me so why must I keep being judged so harshly.I am not perfect by any means and deserve to be judged for many things. A life in thy kingdom may not be for me but a life of damnation seems far too extreme.

I will become better I will put forth the effort I may fall off the wagon and my feet will start dragging but I am determined I will not stop learning from the mistakes that I make and the sins I commit and thats how I know the kind of person I am, thats how I know the kind of person I am.

For although I have sinned and this I admit my mistakes were not ones that cant be forgiven by the ones that I love or the ones that love me so why must I keep being judged so harshly.I am not perfect by any means and deserve to be judged for many things. A life in thy kingdom may not be for me but a life of damnation seems far too extreme.

Three Years Ago

Three years ago a man was born, at the age of twenty seven. He learned to love forever more, he met an angel straight from heaven. On that day he met this girl that showed him how to see the world, he promised her he'd keep her safe from any pain that came her way. Three years ago this man was born, at the age of twenty seven. Three years later his heart is torn, and the angels back in heaven.

Three years ago an angel fell, her life was crumbling fast. She felt alone and scared as hell, she was running from her past. Suddenly a man came by and helped her to her feet. He showed her love and protected her from any demon she would meet. Three years had past and she felt safe, her fears were kept at bay. She loved this man with all her heart until a fateful day. There came a pain that struck her down, she ran from all she knew. She left the man she loved so dear and fell for someone new. Three years ago an angel fell, her life was crumbling fast, now she has two men she loves as she struggles with her past.

Three years has passed and a tragic day has come, for these two lovers have a choice that will forever change their love. The man must find a way to keep the promise that he made, he swore that he would save this girl from any pain that came her way. The girl has fallen for someone else but her heart was split in two, she knows she cannot love them both but there is no way that she can choose. Three years has passed and a tragic day has come, a decision has been made that will forever change their love.

Three years ago a couple met, now they must split up. The man will always love this girl but he must give her up. The angel that he met that day, he will never leave her side but a sacrifice must be made to ensure her better life. She loves this man with all her heart and would never choose to leave, but he knows that he must let her go, he must let her go be free. He will save her from the pain she feels, by allowing her to soar. For the other man that she has met can offer her much more. Three years ago a man was born, an angel gave him faith. Today this man's heart is torn, and the angels heart was saved.

The Last Dream

My eyelids grew heavy as I drfted off to sleep, the last thoughts in my mind of were my precious Ellie. As I entered my slumber I awoke in a dream where life was exactly what I wanted it to be.

A walk in the park, a picnic under the sun. A relaxing date with the girl that I love. In dreams we get the things that we want, in reality we are powerless as it all comes undone.

The sun shines down bright not a cloud in the sky but a shadow appears and it gets dark as night. The perfect dream has a blemish that wears a black cloak, it takes control of my dream and will not let go.

Ice cold fingers of death reach thru my chest grab ahold of my heart and takes my last breath. I am frozen in fear not sure what to do, not fearing my motality but afraid for Ellie Liew. So I stare straight in deaths eyes, not afriad if I die more intent to give in so he may spare my loves life.

She approaches this horseman and stops by his side, then looks at me and says its alright. She kisses him deeply and the figure takes form but not of a demon its of a man she adores. She smiles at him and then looks at me they turn their back and I watch them leave. In reality I sleep stuck in a dream but my body reacts subconciously.

Back in my dream I beg Ellie to stay, she doesn't listen to a word that I say. The bottle of pills was meant to relieve pain so I took all of them to stop my heart ache. My mind was still sleeping but my body was awake, the entire bottle of pills I really did take.

I awoke with a sick feeling inside me and my heart began to race as I found the empty pill bottle beside me. I was asleep, stuck in a dream but my body reacted subconciously. My eyelids grew heavy as I drifted off to sleep, the last thoughts I had were of my precious Ellie.

The Edge

I found the edge, and I leaned over.

I would've fallen if you had'nt grabbed my shoulder.

You pulled me back and held me close.

You made me promise that I'd never let you go.

We saw the edge and we embraced it.

I was scared but you were there to help me face it.

I grabbed your hand as we leaped into forever.

Where we land atleast we'll be together.

I was lost but somehow you came to me.

You called my name and brought me back to reality.

Life got hard and I tried to run away but you held on and made me want to stay.

I crossed the edge, and I came back again.

I'm no longer scared of what may happen.

I am strong because you were there for me.

When I'm with you the edge is just a memory.

If you reach the edge and you feel like you want to jump.

Ill take your hand and together we will take the plunge.

We will land in a place that lasts forever.

I place of love where we will always be together.

If you get lost, I will find you.

Just listen for my voice and it will guide you.

When life gets hard we no longer run away, we just hold on to our love and faith.

I found the edge and I leaned over

You grabbed my hand and laid your head upon my shoulder.

You said if I felt lost that we could take a jump.

I smiled back and said I found what I really want.

We reached the edge and we looked into forever.

Knowing that we would always be together.

Ill be there for you cause you were there for me.

When I'm with you the edge is just a memory.

Reoccuring Thoughts

Reoccuring thoughts and floating emotions get carried away like driftwood in oceans. Sometimes they vanish travel way out of reach as far as the horizon beyond open seas. Sometimes they linger as if tied to an anchor getting pulled under water but resurfacing later. Thought to be gone and free of emotion, these reoccuring thoughts attached to undying devotion.

Reoccuring dreams appear in thy sleep, disturbing our efforts at slumbering peace Past crimes or regrets, thoughts we try to forget, lost loved ones we hurt or failed to protect. Mistakes that we made or the ones we did not, reoccuring in dreams our subconscious they haunt.

Reoccuring thoughts, lingering dreams. Holding onto a past causes these things. But letting it go may not be the answer like the drift wood in oceans it may return ever after. Nothing is forever proof is the ocean, and powerful storms wash ashore old emotions. Methods of madness to find ways to move on, coming full circle with resurfacing thoughts.

Ode to the Thread of Humanity

Ever since you left my side I've contemplated suicide.

Homicide, genocide but none of it seemed justified.

To take a life that was not mine, to end my life out of pride.

Out of spite.

But even still it seems right, to inflict upon the world the pain I feel inside.

Let go of my humanity, don't confuse this with insanity.

I don't kill so you will notice me, I kill cause you let go of me.

You were the thread I hoped you'd be sewn into morality.

Keeping me from falling in the darkness that surrounded me.

Take credit for the man I am, take pride in what I do.

The innocence that has been lost, they died because of you.

My Pen Steady Bleeds

The paper absorbs the ink that my pen steady bleeds, the outcome are words that expose a hidden me. I try to hide my cries, but my pen defies my will, it has this need to write the pain I really feel.

My life is on these sheets, all the times that I am weak, all the things that I cant express to the people close to me. I cant see the paper, I cant control my hands, they write down all my anger, my pen bleeds when I am sad.

I cant continue fighting, I cant continue lieing, I pretend that I am stronger but inside I am dieing. So I try to hide my pain inside and rip apart the sheets, but every time i need to cry, my pen it steady bleeds.

A Surreal Reality

It all seems surreal like it's just a dream, and tomorrow I'll wake up and you'll be here for me.

You'll kiss me and hug me and tell me you love me. Then hit me and smile and say you won't hurt me.

But who am I kidding this isn't a dream, because your not my girlfriend you chose him over me. I did everything right, I gave you all that you need. But my love wasn't as appealing as the life he could bring.

It all seems surreal like it's just a dream, and tomorrow I'll wake up and you'll be here for me.

You'll kiss me and hug me and tell me you love me. Then hit me and smile and say you wont hurt me.

You asked me to wait, I gave you three years. You asked me to have faith, I faced all my fears. You asked me to understand everything you've been thru, so I grabbed your hand and said I love you. That no request was too big, no need was too great. I will give you time, for you I would wait.

Now it all seems surreal like it's all just a dream, and tomorrow I'll wake up and you'll be here for me.

You'll kiss me and hug me and tell me you love me. Then hit me and smile and say you won't hurt me.

I got down on my knees I begged you to stay, I cried out to you as you walked away. You never looked back, you said the choice has been made. I cried out again as I felt my heart break. I need you Ellie, there so much at stake. Please don't go back on the promise you made.

Now it all seems surreal like it was all just a dream. I woke up without you, you weren't here for me.
No kisses or hugs, no saying you love me. Then it will hit me, I am alone. You did hurt me.

It isn't too late, you can still make this right. Just tell me your sorry and get on the next flight. Come here to texas, we will start our new life. It isn't too late, you can still make this right.

I'll Be Your Best Friend Still

I'm sorry I love you

and I'm having trouble,

accepting its over between me and you.

But I'll be your best friend still.

I care for you deeply so baby believe me

I'll be here when you need me

and whenever you see me

I'll be your best friend still.

Please forgive the things that I say, I know they cause pain. I know I am going about this in all the wrong ways. I am trying to be stronger I'll get better each day. So please have faith.

I'm sorry I love you

and I'm having trouble

acceptig its over between me and you.

But I'll be your best friend still.

I care for you deeply so baby believe me

I'll be here when you need me

and whenever you see me

I'll be your best friend still.

I hate you but I love you, I loath you but I want you. I am lieing when I'm hurtful and I'm hurting without you. You choice it is painful but I know that I can do a lot better thenI have been just give me some patience and I swear it's true. I will stay with you.

I'm sorry I love you

and I'm having trouble

accepting it's over between me and you.

But I'll be your best friend still.

I care for you deeply so baby believe me

I'll be here when you need me

and whenever you see me

I'll be your best friend still.

Footprints

Two sets of footprints in the sand, walking side by side, tell the story of our past before the rising tide. But with each new dawn the waters gone and so are our footprints, so we forget the past that has passed and walk the beach again.

We leave our footprints in the sand walking hand in hand; we don’t look back in the past we just keep eyes ahead. But with each new day the tide will fade and so will our footprints, so we join hands to walk the sands as we fall in love again

Two sets of footprints in the sand, walking side by side, tell the story of our past before the rising tide. Like the beaches we clean our slate starting a brand new day, not focused on the wrongs we’ve done but on the footprints we will make.