Pa Wild One 4 Life Not The Girl To Mess...'s blog: "Pennsylvania Princess"

Though im sure he knows who he is.. (he is one on my top friends) because i have been finding myself repeatly telling him that i love him in the last few days.. plus, we have been friends for a while now,.. hes always been there for me, and i will always be there for him no matter what.. though im sure, he is not ready for anything else other then friendship long term.. and that is okay.. i will always hang out and wait for him just incase that day he wants to try anything more to come.. and if not then i am just glad ot have him as my friend. I have been trying to bring myself to talk to him more about things.. like how much he means to me (although im sure he knows) ect.. but im not that great with words.. or i say something and get lost in the true meaning of what i wanted to say.. so.. i found this song by Avril Lavigne called "when your gone" - i find it the perfect song to help me with the words i feel for him in my heart.. :) so all i can do now is hope that he comes online one day, and stops by to listen to my song, not only to hear it, but to know what it was i was trying so long to tell him.. that i just couldnt bring myself to... and take a long shot in hopes that someday he feels the same way for me as i do him.. he is my best friend for so many reasons, even i lost count! and even though im scared shitless as to what will happen to us next.. i have to slowly move ahead of myself, in hopes that we have something more then just a long term friendship. though im deathly frightened of rejection, or losing a freind that i had for what seems to be forever.. i must tell him.. once and for all how i feel.. like a wise person once said you never know what could happen if you dont try.. and it may take time, but i dont care.. someday i will fine it within myself and in my heart to be strong enough to telll him flat out how i feel.. but until then, i hope the song gives him a pretty good idea.. and again im sure you know who you are, - like i said you have been there for me in the long run, and i will do the same for you.. "friends forever".. says alot.. and i know that meaning is meant for us.. I couldnt ask for anyone better or stronger to be my best friend.. Thank you again for always being there... I love you!!!

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. (or for you to offer the same FOR or to THEM). They may seem like a godsend and they are.. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then,without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season. LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you weather it is for a reason, season, or lifetime To thine own self be true

I try so hard.. and i seem to be so nice to the ppl who i guess dont give a shit about anything! things like this just piss me off to no end! I am starting to think that i am just to nice to all the wrong ppl? I know alot of ppl dont like the hard ass bitchy type either,.. so, my question is this.. if they are not crazy about the nice people who are down to earth and want NOTHING but the best for everyone, and they just dont seem to get along with the bitchy girls who think they are are better then anyone and that the world cant hurt them.. then what "type" do i fall under.. and what am i doing wrong?????????????

I'm in tears:( this is so sad.... Please pray for this baby... He is so brave and God is letting him hang on for a reason. Pray for baby Kaleb.

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Okay as the story goes... I knew someone for almost all my life.. since we were about 5 years old, and we became friends from the get go.. or so it seemed.. we went to all the same schools, we watched each other grow up, we graduated together.. sadly after high school we lost touch for a while, but thanks to myspace and yahoo messenger we finally got in contact with one another.. and since then, we had our up's and downs just like all friends but as luck should have it.. everything worked out.. and we are now getting along great! we tend to talk what seems to be alot more now, on alot of different things - we have fun together we laugh and all that.. so 22 years later its like nothing ever changed for us as friends... which is awesome because he is one hell of a awesome guy.. and i cant picture my life without him as my friend.. but ya know when your really young, and you believe that you love someone.. but ppl tell you that you are way too young to know what true love is? in this case for me thats not always true.. because with this guy i knew from the start of it all deep down within myself that this guy would be the one for me.. he still makes me laugh, we still talk comfortable to each other... so its like nothing has changed seeing as though were older.. we have a semi different interest in each other.. now that we are older.. its not something a "grade school" kid has in common.. its something more.. and its strange for me to say this but i always thought of him as one of my best friends - he will never know that though for i wont tell him.. but im sure he knows!! The only problem is.. i dont know how serious he is willing to take things with me.. or even if he is 100% serious about me at all.. the sad thing in all of this is.. I love him.. more then anything in this world... more then just a friend, and i think i had these feelings for him for a while now.. but knowing that im shy.. i tend to hide behind my feelings in fear that just maybe he dont feel the same way.,, and i wish that i could get up enough nerve to tell him once and for all how i feel and what he means to me.. but i just choke on my words! I have a serious case of butterflies when and each time i talk to him.. and i dont know why.. is it because i see more of him now, then i did before.. I love him more each time.. i only wish i could tell him that! and there are times he gets upset.. and i feel like ripping my own heart out because i know him.. and i really hate to upset or hurt him.. god knows i dont mean to..he's my everything.. just that i need time to work around things.. God I love him so much.. and i hate to lose him over something so silly.. and after such a long period of time.. he said tonight that i could make him mine.. i just have to work at that.. and he knows ill do anything i have to do to get him.. cuz that boy has my heart... in a tight grip.. but he needs to understand that... and i dont want to do something that makes him think any less of me as a person... my heart for him is so huge... i cant tell you.. i cry everytime hes away from me... i cry when i dont see him days on end.. i just need to make him MINE!!!! there is no way around it, i know we were meant to be together!! Im even ready to cut my current boyfriend lose for him.. hes my everything and always had been.. i love him to death.. without him i feel like im nothing!! i just dont know at this point in time if and how i will tell him that i love him.. right now we are just "playing" kind of sorta i guess, but i want more then anything to have him hold me in his arms, and kiss his foft lips.. and everything else that comes of it.. i just want to make him mine once and for all... i just wish i knew the steps to take.. and to do it without upsetting him in anyways...