Though im sure he knows who he is.. (he is one on my top friends) because i have been finding myself repeatly telling him that i love him in the last few days.. plus, we have been friends for a while now,.. hes always been there for me, and i will always be there for him no matter what.. though im sure, he is not ready for anything else other then friendship long term.. and that is okay.. i will always hang out and wait for him just incase that day he wants to try anything more to come.. and if not then i am just glad ot have him as my friend.
I have been trying to bring myself to talk to him more about things.. like how much he means to me (although im sure he knows) ect.. but im not that great with words.. or i say something and get lost in the true meaning of what i wanted to say.. so.. i found this song by Avril Lavigne called "when your gone" - i find it the perfect song to help me with the words i feel for him in my heart.. :) so all i can do now is hope that he comes online one day, and stops by to listen to my song, not only to hear it, but to know what it was i was trying so long to tell him.. that i just couldnt bring myself to... and take a long shot in hopes that someday he feels the same way for me as i do him.. he is my best friend for so many reasons, even i lost count!
and even though im scared shitless as to what will happen to us next.. i have to slowly move ahead of myself, in hopes that we have something more then just a long term friendship. though im deathly frightened of rejection, or losing a freind that i had for what seems to be forever.. i must tell him.. once and for all how i feel.. like a wise person once said you never know what could happen if you dont try.. and it may take time, but i dont care.. someday i will fine it within myself and in my heart to be strong enough to telll him flat out how i feel.. but until then, i hope the song gives him a pretty good idea..
and again im sure you know who you are, - like i said you have been there for me in the long run, and i will do the same for you.. "friends forever".. says alot.. and i know that meaning is meant for us.. I couldnt ask for anyone better or stronger to be my best friend.. Thank you again for always being there... I love you!!!
