I still honestly hope that some things will change. It will really surprise me if they actually do, but still. There isn't one damn thing that just any one person can do about somethings in this world. Couse you can go ahead and try, doesn't at all mean you will see the difference in even like 5 to 10 months or years.

I have gone and thought that maybe I should just pull back and go into hiding.  Crawl into my cubby and hibernate. I don't see myself has being missed. This is something the doctors say I suffer from. Depression shouldn't be so powerful. Does not at all help when you have better past memories than future possibilities. I know the line I need to cross,but it feels so damn impossible. I also know that there are people that don't really give a care for anyone but themselves, ya all are maybe not going to go alone, but when you do go I ain't gonna tootle you later. I am not gonna say 'ya all come back now, ya hear??"

I tried to understand fubar like I thought I maybe should and it hurt my head. I maybe different. I may think too much but I am not a waste of space. The ones that take and take with no heart, are seriously debateable on that factor. I don't straight out, hate anybody. I do hope that nobody hates me. If anytime is spent thinking of me, I am thankful. Thank you for traveling the road less taken. Stay safe!!