This is something I dont think I would do normally but sence I will never get the chance to tell this bastard in person in court so that he can be punished I thought maybe I could get these words out and it will help me to heal some.
JERMEY (the guy who killed Ashley)
I wonder if the events of March 11th 2006 replay over and over in your head driving you insain? I wonder if you still take your life for granted? I wonder if you look at your family and think about what your actions have done to Ashleys family. Do you go threw hell everyday or have you blocked it from your mind like it never happend at all to keep from loosing it?
Did you get out of your car and hold our baby girl and try to give comfort till help came or were you mad as hell for her being there and just let her lay on the cold pavement and die?
There are so many questions I wish I could get ancers to. This isnt forgiveness or to make you feel any better and I dont expect a responds. Im writing this to you to hopefully make myself get threw some of the pain Im dealing with for the past 6 months. Our family waited hours on end and even slept at the hospital in hopes that it was all a bad dream. Ashley would wake up and say something smart like her head hurt.... she never did. It took its toll.
My hope is that your going to read this and understand that your neglegence destroyed a beautyfull bright 16 year old with her whole life in front of her. She was a daughter, sister, cusin, friend and aunt. She was an artist and poet and hoped to someday help other kids with telling her life story. I know that may seem dumb to you that what would a 16 year old kid have to offer but you have no idea what her life was like and what child reading her thoughts could have been changed by it. Her favorite color was baby blue. She had one week and one month to go before she turned 17, something she was really excited about. She loved spending summers at the lake and being in the water. A week before the wreak she asked on the coldest day in march if we could all pack up and go to the lake the following weekend. Everyone looked at her crazy, but her and I just shared a smile cause I knew she was just playin around but half heartidly really wanted to go at the same time.
The only good thing that came from all of this is that it brought our family closer than we have ever been and she helped several other people live.
I will never forget your name. I will never forget what you took from us. The fact that you were not punished makes me SICK. It proves that the system doesnt work!
I hope someday you can look my brother and sister in the eyes and ask for their forgivness because you will never get mine. I wish that everyday you wake up Ashley is on your mind and you never forget her because for the rest of our lives we will have an empty place in our lifes and our hearts.
