Tonight like a lot of other nights of late. I wish I wan't me, I wish this wasn't my life. I would be anywhere eles but here if I could. Thee last few months have been hell. Going through ,the lost of a friend,my mom sickness. Right now I wish that I wasn't here and that I was somewhere eles with someone who truely understood me and cared for me,doing what a 28 year old like myself should be doing. I should be out enjoying water going away and spring coming. I should be haveing fun with my friends and that person that makes my heart race. Not working my ass off, to keep peace. But yet I have put a hold on mylife for the last few months and not asking to be set free. Just asking for a break that all,I could never and would never turn my back on family. I know that I gave my word to my mother not to let my brothers know how she's really doing,but tonight I was i wasn't honoring her wishes. I'll stop now before i cry to much where the keys get blurred.
