I have come to find that nothing else compares to the love I get from my children.Yes,they hate me from time to time,but I am not their best friend,I am their mother.My kids know me well. They know I fall in love easy and pay for it later.They know even at their young ages that I have be physically abused and that I look at the world in a totally different way from their friends parents.They have come to accept me with all my faults. They understand that things have been very hard on me lately and don't judge me for the way I act.They make sure to tell me that they love me on a daily basis.Sometimes I think they are worried I won't be here when they come home from school.My children see the pain and sadness in my eyes and face and try to make me feel better.Some days are better than others. Today is not the best day and I got the best I love you I could ever get and that is from my children. I am only destined to be truly loved and cared for by my children. I miss companionship,but I can learn to live with out that from a man.I can throw away men just as easily as they can throw me away.My children will always be a part of me.