My pain is great,my heart hurts,then mends and the hurts again.When will it end?I don't want this anymore.I want joy,happiness,pleasure.I want it all not just the pain.I want my head to stop spinning and being clouded with the memory of us.I want to hear the word's you so desperately want to say,the words that are lost in you.You have me in front of you,my full attention.you just give me more pain.I see it in your eyes.It's there.I feel it,on my skin with your touch but you pull away.I am a fool.I want so to walk away and to stay.I am lost out in a tossing sea and am slowly drowning.My body is cold,in a lonely world.I need you by my side,not to complete me,for I am complete.You are my other half,my calmness,my everything.I don't want anymore pain.Take it away.You wont,your gone from me again.
I will learn to not have you there for me,to not make me laugh and smile.To touch my heart,mind body and soul.Pain is taking control once again.
