I must say one thing first before I start this entry... When I have someone or something that gives me inspiration, I can type my feelings out to no end.
The only thing I made as a Resolution was to stop smoking, which I'm almost there and then try to completely stop drinking as much as I have in the past. One other wish, perhaps not really a resolution cause it is out of my control... Getting "MY BABY" back....regardless how hard it will be, I'll try my best and wait as long as I can. There's so many memories about her I miss. I miss how I'd tell her how pretty she was and she'd start majorly blushing and just look so adorably cute. I also remember a time when we went to Virginia Beach and the last night we were there, we sat on the beach and we held each other. The safest I've ever felt in my life. Memories also such as coming home and seeing the room cleaned up and dinner made and times to when we watched movies and held each other then and her kiss......oh God....how I miss it, how I'd give my own life to for my own lips to touch those just once more... It'd be worth it to me, for how hard I cry about her everynight and just wish in some points my life was over, cause I'm tired of the pain. There's nothing I can do, I've done what I can and she just doesn't trust me and believe in me that I've changed.... Regardless if she knows it, I'd give my life up in a second if it meant that she'd live a very happy and enjoyable life. While she was here, I always told her she was my baby and always would be... She has to be the most sweetest and amazing girlfriend I've ever had and I Thank God every waking moment I had with her, every chance to see a glimpse of her smile, a word from her sweet lips, to feel her sweet heart next to mine... I don't see how ppl could live without having her in their lives. Just precious as an Angel and I screwed up.... I have to live with that regret of screwing up and I'll never live it down.........ever
Bottomline, I've always thought I was better than most guys, I so thought I knew how to treat a woman...well I guess fate or time or whatever just had to show me I was full of shit and that I don't know anything......I guess I truly am a fake and that I'll live my life never being happy...what a life I have to look forward to................. :'-(
If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever
Oh, so clearly I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
As always, TO BE CONTINUED>>>>>>>
