Ugggggg! Life is "Funny" sometimes. I have an open marriage. Well We are trying to have an open marriage anyway. Neither of us is monogamous…. any way I have spent the last couple of months going through hell, dealing with issues of jealousy, insecurity, and intimacy. We have been hammering out what all this means to each of us.
Well this all came about because I found a boy that I really liked. He fit Me in every way. He was submissive, passionate, funny, and witty. I enjoyed Myself so much. I knew it would not last forever, was not looking for it to do so. I did however think it would last longer than this. I thought that the boy was worth pushing the issues mentioned above.
Now the boy is telling Me that all of this is getting to be “too hard”. He is not getting enough out of O/our relationship…. What the fuck am I suppose to do with that? I mean good god damned! Give it some time…. We have only been seeing each other for 2 months…I was out of state for 2 weeks of this. Then the boy got sick.. so that is another weekend gone. So W/we really have not even had time to explore anything.
I am just bewildered, hurt, and down right pissed off! It feels that I have been in the bowls of hell for nothing!
Anyway I am really needing some feed back.....
