Fallen Dark Angel's blog: "Natalie"

Should I do whatever it takes to see my daughter whille on leave? Even if the consequences mean I have to bring out the scariest side of me!! The parts of me I try not to show anyone. The person who doesn't care about what gets in his way "The Beast Within" Or should just expect that there nothing I can do without the courts? But I grow weary of all the things I have missed and upset by what I will. Should I be angry at myself for not marrying the mother at the time I loved And for some odd reason still love unimaginable, but why? Even after all the lies and just really dumb shit that has been said. Should I do the smart but time consuming court order. It seems to be so many choices and so few answers to help me. So ask again Should I?

While I stand all alone in the darkness, Only then did I understand the meaning of your tears I stepped into the world I wanted to be, But I didn't want to harm anyone. The winds blowing across the ocean head towards tomorrow without hesitation But why cant my heart start beating What sort of destiny awaits I dont want to regret that I was born In sorrow there's courage One only needs to reachout and grab to believe. Tears of the blue sky come pelting down, Someday I will change them into smiles

Cold rain falls in the lonely night If I close my eys, I feel your presence Our meeting was not by chance it was fate. Mightier than Power, one shred of Love can become unseen strength. The promise we made remains in my heart. Do not lose; You must not lose!!

When I think about you; my mind begins to wonder in the memories we have shared. Sometimes I sit and stare at your picture. My eyes start to galze as I get lost. Lost in the thought of when ?I? will see you again; when I will hold you in my arms and hope I never have to let go. Letting go is the worst feeling but knowing I will come back to you makes it worth everyday apart. So the moments I spend with you I cherish as if its the last I'll every see you. Each kiss is a kiss of passion and every look will photographed into my mind so; When I think about you.....