Through it all, you were there for me when others wouldn't even care. You took my hand and led me to my life, making me see what I was missing out on. You were there when I'd cry, when I would laugh and smile. You could make the rainy miserable days so full of sunshine and rainbows. I was too afraid to jump in head first, instead I only tested with my toes. I wish I could've jumped in like you did and always do, but I thought the worst. Now I feel like heaven died, paradise is lost, and all is sunken in the deepest pits of despair. All the tears I've cried, all the sleepless nights, all the dinners I can't stomach are all because I'm terrifed now. I don't know if I can handle losing you completely, maybe to another woman. I know I'm no match for half the women out there, but I do know that I am real, I know what love is, I'm faithful to you even now, when you're on the road. No one else can give you what I did or can. My tears now are bitter, staining my face and heart with blood, my soul has been ripped away, leaving the rest of me bare to be scrutinized by all. You alone are the only one who can make it all better, you can stop my tears, you can make me smile and laugh once again. All I need to hear is " I love you, I'm still in love, lets try again". Save me from my own personal hell and horrifying thoughts.
I LOVE YOU NICK MARTINEZ, MORE THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW!!!!!
